So yesterday morning was my 3rd or 4th discharge from the hospital. My alcohol intake has hit a critical point. When I was laying in the hospital bed the first night, I thought, "well I ever stop? Will this finally kill me?" I got saved this time, but what ever next time, i'm there at the end. If you say oh just stop, you can just have a few this one night....I CAN'T! I'm a alcoholic. One turns to a few week binge, 12 or 14 cans or 2 bottles a day. I know I need to stop, I know I need to stop blaming it on Covid. It's all me. I need to stop. Last night I attended my very first Zoom AA meeting, it was as cringy as I thought it was gonna be. Felt good to be back in that environment. I'm still struggling, I know that I don't want a drink now but I know in a few weeks its gonna creep back in. When I talked to enough people and have the balls to make that call to someone from a meeting to say im struggling. Still abit out of it but had the power yesterday to clean up my mess and attend that meeting last night. All I got to say. Much love ❤️✌️#alcoholic #recovery #backtostepone (at Wabigoon, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/COAcuPeMIuA/?igshid=1clbxxkvn8er5
