#badjhur

[tojisteddy]

I just can not believe Badjhur has passed away. He was such an amazing voice actor but just a sweet person whenever I saw him on my Twitter timeline. Always leaving sweet messages and encouraging those around him to keep going and follow their passions. God, I pray he’s resting easy now.

[sirenmoth]

just found out one CODs most popular NSFW audio creators, Badjhur, has passed away due to heath complications

My condolences go to his friends and family, he was a wonderful person to have in the community

[juniperleewrites]

Badjhur - Script Dedication

Hello all. As some of you may know, I used to write for the COD fandom, particularly for Ghost and König. Unfortunately, due to external pressures, I deleted my previous blog. Before that, however, I reached out to the voice actor Badjhur to inquire if he'd do a reading of one of my fanfictions. It featured Simon "Ghost" Riley and Virgin!F!Reader. I won't go into too much detail, but Badjhur was nothing but kind, courteous and patient with me during the process. Sadly, he passed away last June, something I'm still coping with to this day.

I don't have the original fanfiction, but I do still have a copy of the script I made for him. Even though I wanted to post this in June as a dedication to Badjhur, I'll be traveling abroad during that month. So for now, I'd like to share the script for my fanfiction "Closer", dedicating it to him.

I hope you enjoy.

Side Notes:

The listener has no dialogue; the actions are only there for direction.

The dialogue is written in all caps, but it doesn’t mean Simon is shouting/raising his voice. The volume of his voice is in the directions or can be at your [Badjhur's] discretion.

INT. SIMON’S BEDROOM - NIGHT The scene opens with Simon and the listener making out on his bed. The bed frame creaks slightly beneath the two of them when he suddenly rolls over, leaving the reader on top. Simon smiles as he breaks away from the kiss. He takes the listener’s hand and presses individual kisses to every one of her knuckles.

SIMON (softly)

YOU’RE SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU KNOW THAT?

He moves back up and kisses her on the mouth a few more times before the listener mutters something against his lips. He grunts in curiosity before pulling away.

SIMON (inquisitively)

WHAT WAS THAT, SWEETHEART?

There’s a short pause as the listener hesitates.

SIMON (reassuringly)

C’MON NOW. YOU KNOW YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING.

There’s another pause as the listener explains that she wants to have sex with him. Simon’s breath hitches slightly.

SIMON (barely above a whisper) REALLY?

Another brief pause. Simon hums as he listens to her ask if he doesn’t want to have sex.

SIMON (a more serious tone)

NO, NO I WANT TO. TRUST ME. (he chuckles quietly) I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU’RE COMFORTABLE WITH THIS…WITH YOU AND ME-

The listener interrupts and continues to tell him that she’s sure. Simon takes a deep breath.

SIMON

ALRIGHT. BUT ON ONE CONDITION: YOU HAVE TO TELL ME IF I’M DOING ANYTHING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE.

He cups her face in his hands, the fabric of the sheets shuffling slightly as they get comfortable.

SIMON

THIS IS YOUR FIRST TIME, SWEETHEART, AND I WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU’RE TAKEN CARE OF.

He sighs as his hands fall down to her shoulders.

SIMON

SO, CAN YOU DO THAT FOR ME?

The listener explains that she will and that she’ll ask the same of him.

SIMON (lovingly)

MMM, THANK YOU, LOVE. (he pecks her cheek) YOU’RE ALWAYS SO CONSIDERATE.

He gives her a long, passionate kiss. The two of them make out for about a few seconds before he grunts as the listener squeezes his ass playfully.

SIMON (jokingly)

A BIT HANDSY TONIGHT, ARE WE?

Simon chuckles.

SIMON NAUGHTY THING.

He kisses down her jawline before making his way down her neck. Simon’s hands wander to her breasts as he gives them a gentle squeeze.

SIMON (lowly)

MM, I LOVE THE WAY YOUR TITS FIT PERFECTLY INTO MY HANDS.

He sucks another hickey onto her, this time on her collarbone. Simon continues to massage her breasts as he rolls on top of her. He groans against her skin as he starts to grind his hips against her crotch. Simon grinds his hips a bit more as he pulls her shirt over her head and tosses it aside.

SIMON

GOD, I CAN ALREADY TELL YOU’RE FUCKING SOAKED.

He makes a sound of confusion as the listener becomes embarrassed.

SIMON

AW, LOVE, IT’S ALRIGHT. NOTHIN' TO BE ASHAMED OF.

Simon pecks her nose.

SIMON (a husky murmur)

NOW, HOW ABOUT YOU LET ME TAKE OFF THE REST OF THESE CLOTHES SO I CAN SEE THAT PERFECT BODY OF YOURS, YEAH?

The listener nods. Simon hums before removing the rest of her clothes. He inhales sharply as his eyes rake over her body.

SIMON (in awe)

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN WEARING THIS LINGERIE, HM?

The listener explains that she's worn it all day.

SIMON

“ALL DAY”, YEAH? EVEN TO WORK?

The listener blushes as she replies “yes”. Simon takes a deep breath before exhaling in a low, husky tone.

SIMON

WELL, I’M DEFINITELY FLATTERED.

He rubs her upper thighs as he drinks in her appearance.

SIMON

GOD, YOU’RE SO GORGEOUS

The listener protests but Simon huffs in disapproval.

SIMON

(candidly)

I MEAN IT. YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.

He gives her a short kiss before sliding off the bed.

SIMON

LET ME GRAB SOMETHING REAL QUICK. I THINK IT’LL HELP EASE YOU INTO YOUR FIRST TIME.

Simon winks before walking over to the dresser near the bed. He rummages around for a few seconds before pulling out a vibrator. He chuckles when he sees the listener’s face turn red.

SIMON

MIND IF I USE THIS ON YOU?

He chuckles again when he sees her bite her lip.

SIMON (slightly amused)

OH THIS THING? I FOUND IT WHILE I WAS DOING LAUNDRY LAST WEEK.

The listener hastily tries to explain herself.

SIMON

HEY, HEY IT’S ALRIGHT. I’M NOT MAD AT YOU FOR HAVING A BLOODY VIBRATOR.

The listener asks “Really?”

SIMON

REALLY. I MEAN…EVERYONE NEEDS TO RELIEVE STRESS EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE, RIGHT? (teasingly) THOUGH MAYBE NEXT TIME YOU SHOULD TRY A BETTER HIDING SPOT.

He chuckles. The listener is flustered but still says ‘yes’ to his question about using it on her. He grunts in approval.

SIMON (slightly elated)

I WAS HOPIN' YOU’D SAY THAT.

Simon walks back over, the bed creaking as he climbs back into it.

SIMON

SPREAD THOSE SEXY LEGS OF YOURS FOR ME, BABY.

The toy buzzes to life. He places a hand on the reader’s thigh.

SIMON YOU READY?

The listener nods. Simon slowly places the vibrator over the listener’s clit. He breathes deeply as he massages her bundle of nerves with the toy for a few seconds.

SIMON (muttering lowly)

YOU LIKE IT WHEN I PLAY WITH THIS CUTE CLIT OF YOURS, YEAH?

He grins as he starts to dip it lower.

SIMON

GOING AROUND IT IN TIGHT, LITTLE CIRCLES.

He continues to massage her clitoris as he kneads her hip with his other hand.

SIMON

TELL ME…DO YOU USE THIS WHILE I’M AWAY?

The listener blushes as she says ‘yes’. Simon grunts as he rubs the vibrator in circles around her clit.

SIMON

AND WHO DO YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU’RE PLEASURING YOURSELF?

His brows raise as he hums quietly.

SIMON

“ALWAYS ME”. MMM. THAT’S A GOOD GIRL.

He dips the vibrator down lower.

SIMON

GOD, LOOK AT HOW WET YOU ARE FROM ME RUBBING THIS VIBRATOR UP AND DOWN THAT SLICK SLIT OF YOURS. YOU’RE SO FUCKING SEXY, BABY.

Simon continues to rub it along her labia, her slick sounds mixing with the vibrator. He takes the toy back up to her clit as he kisses her lips.

SIMON

CAN I PUT MY FINGERS IN YOU, LOVE?

He listens for her ‘yes’.

SIMON

MMM. I CAN’T WAIT TO FEEL YOUR CUNT WRAP AROUND MY THICK FINGERS WHILE I PLAY WITH YOUR FOLDS.

He sees her blush.

SIMON (amused)

YOU LIKE IT WHEN I TALK DIRTY TO YOU, YEAH?

Simon chuckles when she averts his gaze and nods.

SIMON THAT’S WHAT I THOUGHT.

Simon grunts softly as he spreads the reader’s labia apart with his hand before slowly inserting one of his fingers inside of her entrance.

SIMON

JESUS, YOU’RE SO FUCKING TIGHT.

He speeds up the vibrations of the toy as he slowly pumps his finger inside of her.

SIMON

(while he continues to finger her)

THAT’S A GOOD GIRL. JUST KEEP RELAXING FOR ME. GONNA SPREAD THIS TIGHT HOLE OPEN ONE FINGER AT A TIME, ALRIGHT?

He fingers her for a little longer before adding another digit.

SIMON

LOOK AT YOU, OPENING UP FOR ME LIKE THIS LIKE A GOOD GIRL.

Simon starts to thrust a little faster before he suddenly slows down.

SIMON

YOU ALRIGHT?

The reader pauses. Simon stops completely, the toy still humming in his hand as he pulls it away.

SIMON

YOU JUST LOOKED UNCOMFORTABLE. YOUR FACE WAS SORT OF…TWISTED IN A WEIRD WAY.

He listens as the reader explains that she wanted to “do it right” like women do in porn. Simon inhales sharply before he turns off the vibrator.

SIMON

(a bit stern yet still compassionate) HEY, LOOK AT ME.

He cups the listener’s face gingerly, waiting for her to look up.

SIMON (gently)

YOU DON’T HAVE TO PRETEND WHEN WE’RE LIKE THIS.

The listener explains that she wants to be “perfect” for the first time.

SIMON (in a loving, comforting tone) I DON’T WANT PERFECT: I WANT YOU.

Simon kisses all over her face.

SIMON

WHATEVER FACES OR SOUNDS YOU MAKE, I WANT TO SEE AND HEAR THEM BECAUSE THEY’RE YOURS. UNDERSTAND?

He waits for her response.

SIMON GOOD.

Simon smiles at her warmly before pressing another kiss to her lips. He shuffles in the bed and sets the vibrator off to the side.

SIMON

DO YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO CONTINUE?

She says “yes”.

SIMON

ALRIGHT. JUST TELL ME IF IT STARTS TO HURT, YEAH?

Simon sighs as he starts to thrust his fingers inside of her again. He moans as his cock starts to get harder beneath his pants. He pushes his pants and boxers down and starts to stroke his dick with his free hand.

SIMON

FUCKIN’ HELL. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU DO TO ME, BABY. SEE ME COMING UNDONE JUST AT THE FEELING OF MY FINGERS STUFFED INSIDE OF YOUR PERFECT PUSSY?

He groans as he pumps his cock in time with him fingering her.

SIMON

YOU’RE TAKIN’ MY FINGERS SO FUCKIN’ WELL. S-SHIT.

Simon strokes himself a little faster, his fingers plunging inside of her tight hole.

SIMON

LET ME PLAY WITH THAT CLIT OF YOURS AGAIN. LOVE RUBBING TIGHT CIRCLES AROUND IT WHILE I FUCK YOU OPEN WITH MY FINGERS.

Simon rubs his thumb over her clit as he adds another finger, three of his digits now stuffed inside of her pussy.

SIMON

COME ON BABY, YOU CAN DO IT. THAT’S IT: CUM FOR ME.

His strokes falter as her walls clamp down on his digits.

SIMON (slightly out of breath)

OH MY GOD. THAT’S A GOOD GIRL. LOOK SO PRETTY WHEN YOU DRENCH MY FINGERS WITH YOUR CUM.

He waits for her orgasm to finish before he pulls all three fingers from her hole. He reaches down and switches hands, now pumping his still hard cock with his slick-coated fingers, the stroking sounds more wet.

SIMON

FUCK, BABY. I NEED TO FEEL YOU AROUND MY COCK.

Simon discards his pants and underwear before popping open a bottle of lube from the nightstand. He slides it over his cock before climbing on top of the listener and applying lube to her pussy. He puts it back on the nightstand.

SIMON

(while he lines the tip of his cock to her entrance)

YOU READY FOR ME?

The listener nods. Simon takes his hands and holds her legs apart.

SIMON

ALRIGHT, SWEETHEART. GONNA START REAL SLOW AND THEN GO FROM THERE.

He slowly pushes his cock inside, hissing through gritted teeth.

SIMON (grunting)

GOD, YOU’RE SO TIGHT. RELAX FOR ME, BABY.

Simon continues to push inside until he’s buried halfway.

SIMON

YOU DOING ALRIGHT? GOOD.

He catches his breath as he pushes the rest of his cock inside, burying himself to the hilt. He groans as he feels her cunt wrap around him, swallowing his cock completely.

SIMON

GOOD GIRL. I KNEW YOU COULD TAKE ME. Simon kisses her deeply. He hears her whimper as her walls flutter around him.

SIMON

I’M SORRY, LOVE. I KNOW IT’S A LOT. JUST TAKE SOME DEEP BREATHS, OKAY?

The listener nods. He takes a few deep breaths with her before speaking again.

SIMON

I’M GONNA START MOVING NOW, ALRIGHT?

Simon takes a deep breath as he slides his cock out halfway before pushing it back in.

SIMON (groaning)

OOOH MY GOD. THIS PUSSY FEELS SO PERFECT HUGGING MY COCK. FUCK.

He continues to pump his cock inside of her wet walls steadily as he kisses down her neck.

SIMON

GOD, YOU LOOK SO GORGEOUS, SWEETHEART. DOING SUCH A GOOD JOB TAKING ALL OF MY DICK.

He moans and pants as her walls clench around him.

SIMON

(while still thrusting inside of her) FASTER? YOU SURE?

The listener says ‘yes’.

SIMON

OKAY, LOVE. JUST WRAP YOUR HANDS AROUND MY SHOULDERS LIKE THIS. YEAH, THAT’S IT. GOOD GIRL. NOW, JUST KEEP HOLDING ON LIKE THAT.

Simon moans as he snaps his hips forward, driving his cock into her at a faster pace.

SIMON

HOLY FUCK THAT’S SUCH A GOOD PUSSY. SO WET AND WARM.

He groans as he starts to rub her clit.

SIMON (grunting)

FUCK, BABY. KEEP GRIPPING ME LIKE THAT AND I’M GONNA-OH SHIT.

Simon’s breath hitches as he feels her walls tighten around his cock. His thrusts falter as he groans.

SIMON

OH THAT’S A GOOD GIRL. COME ON, LET GO FOR ME BABY. (a little more strained) CUM AROUND THIS COCK. FUCK, THIS COCK IS YOURS. SO GO AHEAD AND MILK IT-

Simon pumps his cock inside of her a few more times before she comes undone. He moans as he feels her walls flutter and clamp down on his member.

SIMON (almost out of breath) ATTA GIRL.

He groans loudly as his thrusts become more sloppy, his breathing ragged.

SIMON (a little feral)

SHIT, BABY. I’M RIGHT THERE. RIGHT FUCKIN’ THERE.

He pants heavily as he desperately thrusts into her drenched cunt.

SIMON

GONNA FILL THIS PUSSY UP WITH MY CUM. STUFF YOU FULL OF MY FUCKIN’ SEED-OH FUCK!

Simon’s thrusting suddenly becomes even more sloppy and sporadic as he finally cums inside of her. He pants heavily and moans while fucking his seed deep into her pussy.

SIMON FUCK, BABYGIRL.

He pants before capturing her lips in a passionate, sloppy kiss.

SIMON

YOU DID SO WELL, SWEETHEART.

He slowly slips his cock out of her pussy.

SIMON YOU FEELING OKAY?

He hums when she says ‘yes’.

SIMON GOOD.

He rubs his thumb over her cheek as he kisses her slowly.

SIMON

LET ME DRAW A BATH FOR US, YEAH? GET YOU ALL CLEANED UP AND-

Simon hums as she interrupts and asks if there’s an ulterior motive.

SIMON

WELL…IT’S ALSO A GOOD EXCUSE FOR ME TO LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL BODY OF YOURS FOR A BIT LONGER.

He chuckles when the reader slaps his arm.

SIMON (amused)

SO YEAH, THERE IS AN “ULTERIOR MOTIVE”.

Simon pauses when the listener suddenly tells him “I love you”. He kisses her forehead slowly and tenderly as he pulls her closer.

SIMON (quietly)

YEAH, I LOVE YOU TOO, SWEETHEART. NOW, LET’S GET CLEANED UP.

Simon picks her up, the bed creaking as he walks away.

THE END.

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Thank you for reading. <3

[rose-fics]

I have some very sad news to share for those that follow the NSFW audio community. A beloved voice actor and lovely human, Badjhur, has passed away. The details of his death are unknown, and I believe his friends would prefer it be kept that way.

These are two different announcements from two different platforms. One from X as a group announcement from some of his mutual friends, and one from a friend of Badjhur's and a fellow NSFW audio creator. Several more verified VAs and creators have confirmed this on their own socials. Given that Badjhur was deeply secretive about his personal life and details, I'm not entirely sure if we will get official confirmation as in an obituary or announcement from his next of kin.

What an absolutely tragic loss for the community. Badjhur was such a sweet and tender soul who was so kind. He genuinely seemed like such a sincere and thoughtful person. I hope he was peaceful in the end.

If you need to reach out to someone, please know there are resources available for you. Please take care of yourselves and remember you are not alone.

US Crisis Lifeline: 988 or text TALK to 741741

UK: Crisis Resource Options

[mahiiimahiiii]

There's a new star in the sky, and it's so pretty.

Shine bright boss man

[empresskylo]

i apologize, but i just need to get this off my chest. badjhur’s death has been sitting heavy with me every day since i found out. it feels so fucking wrong and weird to even type that out.

i feel so stupid for grieving someone i never knew personally. someone i never talked to or interacted with. but badjhur is the first person that i actively consume content from to pass away. celebrities i’ve known have passed, but i either didn’t follow them beyond their career, or i wasn’t an active fan. but with badj, i checked at least once a week to see if he had posted anything new. i followed him on his socials and always thought he was funny. he was the only reason i hadn’t deleted my twitter. he had such a sweet and active community. so many artists adored him/were friends with him, always posting such cute art of him. so when i saw he died, i kinda just froze, because wtf do you mean? i took for granted that he was such a constant in my life for the past few years that i never even considered the fact he could die. and now my heart hurts because he had so much more to give. so many amazing friends and followers who are grieving him. for him to just be gone, just like that, doesn’t sit well with me. i keep waiting for him to post again, saying this was all some weird misunderstanding.

and then i get existential with it, knowing that right now, his last reddit and twitter post was from 15 days ago. it feels so weird that he was with us so recently. but that number is just going to keep growing. it will shift to 1 month ago. to a year ago. to 5 years ago. and we’ll get to a point where people have moved on. where new members/followers of the VA community will have no idea who he is.

my heart hurts knowing he’s gone. knowing i’ll never hear a new clip of his voice. knowing he had so much more left to live for. knowing his family and friends must be hurting. knowing he was so young and didn’t want to die. knowing time is just going to keep passing. those “15 days ago” on his last post will just keep growing. he’s never going to get the chance to tweet again or post another audio or see anymore artwork people create for him. and i just don’t know how to grieve or cope with this loss, especially when im going through this alone.

i never thought this random constant in my life would just disappear like this. a constant for the past 2-3 years. and i can’t even imagine how his friends and family are handling his loss.

thank you for listening.

[djartjl]

Rest easy Sunshine...@ Badjhur 💜💙💗

you will be forever missed, forever loved, and forever supported....

....we ALL will miss you dearly...

[chamomiletealeaf]

I’m so fucking lonely man. I just listened to a Badjhur audio on Reddit where he was complimenting the listener and telling her how amazing she is. And like it lowkey made me emotional because the things I would do for a man like that to prove to me I’m desirable and worth that kind of love and lust. I’m so touch starved and so deprived of literally any form of intimacy emotional or physical that I don’t even know how others perceive me. I can’t even tell if I’m pretty or not since no one has ever asked me on a date or even expressed any sort of attraction to me and it really does mess me up. Men have only ever called me fat or ugly or both in like Instagram comments or whatever when they disagree with something I say and it doesn’t bother me since they’re bigots, but like it does make me wonder if anyone would ever look at me and see me the way I was talked to in this audio that wasn’t even made specifically for me…