I wonder if there's a word for like, mental health that's just kind of There. Not sure if I could call it bad, but I sure as hell can't call it good. It's just There, like some kind of bug bite that won't go away; I know it's not meant to be like that, but, I mean, it's not like it's infected. Getting that checked out would be a waste of everyone's time, so I'll just deal with it myself I guess.
It's just Neutral, really. How do you feel? It's a 5/10. Why do you feel like that? I'm not sure, it's just what I'm used to. Is there anything that can be done to make that number higher? No, not really. Sorry, is it bad that I'm just in the middle? I don't feel lows, I don't feel highs, I don't feel most of anything; that's in the middle, neutral. I feel like neutral should realistically be the natural state, with positive and negative events shifting the scale, but that doesn't seem to be the expectation? The neutral state is expected to be "pleasant", while true neutral is seen as uncaring or like there's something wrong. It's not that there's something wrong, there just isn't really anything right either.
