#baka hippy

[tsukkikoi]

Thought I’d take a small 30min nap and I fell asleep for 4hrs 🙃

[tsukki-yume]

My heart started to beat again, yet the first thing it did was ask where you are. I had no answer, for not even I know. It seems sad at my response and curious to find out. But also respects and acknowledges that it’s time to move on. It’s ok to still beat for them, but it will now be a different kind. One that is slower, peaceful, at rest. Leaving the energetic ones for a new potential.

Sunflowers and Moondust; Luna Yupme

[tsukkikoi]

One of my roommates forgot to lock the door as she was heading out earlier today and the other yelled at her through the window saying “lock it, we don’t want anyone to steal Maria” it was too cute! And just now, I was already in bed, had the lights off and everything, I heard them in the kitchen area getting ready to go back home for the weekend and before closing the door behind them both said “goodnight Maria” in a whisper. What cuties! I think they thought I was already asleep but still it gave me feels 😭

[tsukki-yume]

A guy I once liked told me “This is the first time I’ve noticed spring, the flowers are in bloom” as he looked at me with those tender eyes. I giggled and blushed. He was in love, had those rose colored glasses on, as I with him. Then the cold came and took him away, like all other lovers before him. It’s been a year, most recently 3 months of extreme self-care and soul renovation.

It’s Nov. 2nd, I walked a friend out in the cold morning mist and dew. Sunlight percolating through the corners of the buildings and trees. That’s when I first noticed it. This is the first time I have ever noticed fall, the leaves are changing color from green to yellow, orange and red hues. Again, tender eyes, but this time they are mine. Looking upon nature and feeling utterly in love with myself.

Moondust and Sunflowers; Luna Yume

[tsukkikoi]

Lost my appetite again. Let’s see how long it takes to get it back 🙃 last time it was 3 months and both nutritionist and medical doctor had no idea why. They sent me to the psychologist bc it may be something subconscious but??? Ya girl loves food and trying new food.

[tsukkikoi]

Anybody ever have dreams about someone and in the dream you’re in love with them but not in real life, but after you wake up you start thinking like “do I have a crush on them? What is this? Why did I dream that?” And then after thinking so much about it you do end up having a crush 🙃

[tsukkikoi]

I just got offered a job at the lab I was doing research with and I can pick either part time or full time. The millennial in me is like “no find a job you love” but the Marxist in me is like “cease your means of production” and the capitalist in me is like “take the full time job and ask for a raise” 🙃🙃🙃 Why am I like this

[tsukkikoi]

I keep playing baby one more time by Britney Spears and I don’t know where this urge to listen to it even cane from. Is that weird? Like is a higher power just telling me something 😂