Musings of a bald lunatic, part II
what’s more important - working all summer just to pay my bills, or embarking on a journey to complete the spiritual puzzle of wholeness which has vexed me for so long?
i have several options before me, & a decision to make...one which may affect my life path for years to come. to date, i’ve been operating under the premise that my only predictable source of income was through traditional means...working for someone else.
there was always this stumbling block, almost like an impenetrable shadow of uncertainty, which kept me from fully realizing my potential for profit through self-expression. i simply never believed i could make money by voicing my own truth. such a preposterous idea - or was it?
what possibly useful insight could i offer based on my utterly fucked up life experience?
those questions have echoed in my mind for many years, now. of course they’re both based on limiting beliefs dictated by the subconscious mind...nothing more & nothing less.
the fact is, i have a wealth of insight to offer anyone willing to listen. in the past, i always believed my life must be perfectly balanced & complete before i could counsel anyone else. it just didn’t make logical sense to assume otherwise.
big surprise - i was wrong.
all of these deep thoughts i continually have, the 170-plus articles written here @ AJOC, my 100-plus poems written over 20 yrs, countless random passages written in notepad, Word docs, etc. that, notwithstanding the 70-plus meditation videos posted on YouTube of aerial natural landscape footage. everything adds up to a lifetime’s worth of practical experience which is waiting to be disseminated for others to learn from.
the big question is: what exactly am i teaching?
the answer will come when i leave my comfort zone & embark on one final journey of self discovery into the wild - into Nature.
three options:
1. stay here in FL, enduring the heat, humidity & insanity of my aunt’s lifestyle
2. return to NC & work for 3-4 months, saving as much money as possible until the Fall
3. travel into the west for the purpose of recording more footage, fully reconnecting w/Nature, restoring wholeness & finally completing my self-discovery process.
which would you choose?
thanks for reading...