#balinka

[magyarmalter]

jobbra egy aranyos bohócorros, balra a legszebb stancolt kapu, együtt a kedvenc képem. elfogult vagyok, de nem érdekel.

Balinka, Fejér

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[justeyeballitcommunity]

You’ve got the whole world in your hands.

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Just writing here to say that I’m doing way better than I was when I wrote my last post here. Despite the inevitable bullshit of life, I feel pretty great. I can laugh at absurdly unpleasant situations rather than being brought down by them. I’ve got a lot of new stuff going on and I know it will benefit me. I’m excited to see what happens next! Peace and love, y’all.

[justeyeballitcommunity]

Hello Friends

I know this blog has been abandoned, but it doesn’t have to remain so. Life is crazy, y’know, for all of us. We get pulled in so many directions and spread ourselves so thin, there may not be enough energy to go into all areas of life. I’ve become a much happier person than I have been in the past, and it’s because I’ve learned to let go of many things that drag me down. Of course, this is an ongoing process, as life is ever-changing. I am so very grateful for all the wonderful people and circumstances that grace my life. And in the midst of this, I have been sad. I take it in stride and I do my best, but some things punch me right in the heart. All I can do is accept it and grieve, and remind myself that all is not lost and this feeling won’t last forever. I’ve survived much worse, and been strong enough to make it this far. I’m not worried about that. I’m just ready to feel at peace with what’s hurting me. If any of you happen to read this, there’s no pressure to respond. I only ask that you send a thought of peace, love, and happiness my way. Thank you, friends.

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Hey y'all.

I've been doing a lot of traveling, which is quite a change for me. I'm not yet traveling as far and wide as I'd like, but it's more than I've done in many years. I'm also working on projects I've had in mind for sometime now. Some of it is dirty work, but it's been hanging over me for so long, I'm really proud to progress forward. House cleaning, to be specific. It's been a long time coming, and I've put it off for years because it seemed so daunting. I find that as I work on it, it's coming along easier than I anticipated. Isn't that always the way? I know I have this awful habit of blowing things out of proportion and convincing myself that it will all be so much more difficult than it actually turns out to be. Knowing is half the battle, so at least I can remind myself that it's never as bad as I make it out to be. Okay, it is bad, but it isn't unconquerable.

Apart from that, I've also been practicing a bit of self-expression through a photo blog. I've been collecting pictures I've taken for years, and I've really wanted to do something with them. It seemed pointless for them to just sit on a hard drive. So at the beginning of October, I made a secondary tumblr to basically share bits of my life through my own personal pictures from the past and present. I give the backstory on a lot of them. And it's the one place on the internet where I don't feel overindulgent by posting a ton of selfies, and I don't feel self-conscious about mentioning things I don't tend to make public. It's the most candid I've publicly been on the internet since MySpace. That's sounds like a joke, but it's true. The reason for that is because of the nature of MySpace. It was a format that worked for me, and I've really missed those days. It had all these different branches for different purposes (profile, blog, bulletin, messaging, im, etc.), it was fully customizable for people who love to outwardly express themselves, and I didn't have my entire family on there to see all the provocative and illicit shit I posted.

I did have a blog that I wrote for a while after the MySpace heyday, but it eventually fell by the wayside. I was so depressed during the time of both of those, I can't blame anyone for not wanting to read what I had on my mind. I never deleted my profile on MySpace, but most everything was lost when the site was reformatted. Maybe that's for the best, as I remember some of the topics that were reoccurring. Now, I have a much brighter state of mind. I feel so much better about what I have to share than what I've shared in the past. If you have any interest in random and unabashed me, then it can be found at blinkistuff.tumblr.com

I'm very excited that I've just made plans with a friend to work on some music projects. This is a huge deal to me. Music is the answer, and I've always known it. Time to stop avoiding it, and let myself be free.

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Quite sometime ago, Jonathan posted this video to facebook. I started writing a comment on his post. But it became lengthy and involved, so I felt it was better shared here. I've been meaning to do this ever since.

As a child, I liked girl's toys, boy's toys, and neutral toys. Things that were gender specific were never thrust upon me during my upbringing, I was allowed freedom in that area. I liked all different sorts of things.

But getting older often means falling into that marketing trap, as conditioning takes hold, and personal care requirements become more specific. I recall just beginning to look outside the box when I was in my mid- to late-teens. I read a blurb in a magazine that suggested using plain shaving cream instead of those marketed toward women. The perks listed were the much lower cost in a much larger volume and simply better results. I realized how blind I'd been, and my eyes were now opened! I may be a sucker for nice smells, but who really needs scented shave gel?! Not I.

Over the years, I know there were still many instances of me buying into gender marketing. I think I've now gained the awareness to see through it altogether. In fact, I'm usually impervious to all types of marketing these days. I was freed, in part, by avoiding the media, especially television. But there was still the matter of having to shop and to choose from all this different merchandise.

Analyzing the psychology of marketing often keeps me on track because it allows me to see through the veil. Honestly though, the thing that impacted my purchases the most were health concerns regarding the ingredients in personal care items. I began to look into alternatives, but I was still being targeted by marketing.

I started out with products that were labeled as "natural" or whatever, and didn't contain ingredients I was looking to avoid. A lot of it just didn't suit me, so I researched making my own. It seemed so impossible, as I logically believed if people could do it themselves, there was no need for the ready-made products to exist. I obviously wasn't considering the fact that pre-made crustless peanut butter and jelly sandwiches have been on the scene for years, and people actually buy them. That fact has brought me a sense of extreme distaste since I first learned of their unholy existence.

So I set out on making what I need. It was just one thing here and there over a long span of time. However, I found it to be so easy and so cheap, that I've never wanted to go back. And I can customize everything! I made friends with a local lady who makes natural soaps. I liked them better than anything I'd tried from the store. Now she has her own store because everyone loves what she makes! I haven't tried to learn it myself yet, it is a somewhat involved process. But the simpler things I make or have made include toothpaste, mouthwash, deodorant/antiperspirant, moisturizer, and possibly other things I'm not thinking of right now.

Things can often be made with only 2 or 3 ingredients. In the case of moisturizer, you can just use one type of natural oil. Or you can create a blend of different types, and even add essential oil for fragrance. Homemade deodorant/antiperspirant works far better for me than the manufactured stuff ever did.

If you want to avoid target marketing and high prices, I urge you to find a soap maker (or learn it, yourself). And start looking up recipes for whatever you need (this is the internet, for crying out loud).

Go forth and be free!

-Balinka