mtfl was supposed to be yet another diamond mine but i have found myself putting so much care into drawing noah and spending on his scenes every single time 😔✊🏼
The Christmas rush is forever crazy buuut I just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Merry Christmas!! Keeping you all close to my heart and in my prayers always 🥺🥺💖💖 You're my Christmas miracle. Truly. ✨✨
Hey hey dear friends I'm not dead after all 👀 The past (almost) two months haven’t been the easiest for me and my family, hence my disappearing again. Taking care of my sickly grandparents who are well into their mid 90s has taken up most of my time and I’ve been in a creative slump for what seems like eons.
I haven’t felt any inspiration and drive to draw even if I love it more than I can express. I couldn’t seem to muster energy to keep in touch with the people I care so much about even though I badly wanted to (I miss y’all so much it hurts). I’ve questioned my worth more times than I’d like to admit. The pandemic situation here has continued its rapid escalation, not to mention the barrage of typhoons that have hit the past few weeks (hello ph homies #NoKuryente #NoInternet is life). The thought of going back to school to earn a degree I’m not fully invested in but desperately need for a stable future turns me into a nervous wreck (just me freaking out inside). Everything’s been a whizzing blur that has kept me up into many nights. It’s been wild, it’s been difficult, but I’m certain these things are only passing, and they’re happening for a good reason. Everything is always for the good. I believe only God knows the grand scheme of things in His infinite wisdom and love.
But anyway, about 3 hours ago, my grandfather peacefully passed away and I was hoping to ask for your prayers for him. It would mean the world to me. We weren’t close so don’t worry, I’m not feeling too shabby. Still, I can’t help but feel relieved for him. The meds and dialysis for six years... It’s been a long time coming.
On a happier note, I’ve been able to help clean and repair a lot of stuff at home so its finally getting the deep clean that’s way overdue. I’ve been putting in lots of effort to get drawing again in the little free time I have (another thing that keeps me up at night lmao). I’ll be posting some art these coming days! I’ve been working and adapting my art style even more. Unfortunately, they’re not Choices/Fictif/A6/etc. related yet, but that’ll come in good time :> I hope to finally finish all those WIPs I listed down in my progress tracker of sorts. It feels like I’m going through drawing rehab tbh so I’m taking some time getting those hand muscles working again.
Above all, I just wanted to thank you so much. Yes, you reading. You’ve stuck around this long in spite of everything. Heck, you made it this far into this post. Whether we’ve never talked or if we don’t talk much or if I haven’t gotten to reply to you yet, I cannot even begin to express how grateful I am for you. I’ve seen the tags, the messages, and even you not unfollowing. Your presence is a huge blessing, a balm to my soul. Call me cheesy but I mean every word. Truly. Besides, I know your users and real names by heart. I keep you in my prayers always.
I’m fresh out of one of the lowest points in my life and I feel a little more daring now to live more fearlessly and cheerfully. All winters come to an end and I hope to start this (semi) new chapter of my life better than ever before. Guys, I’m really looking forward to seeing you again. Here’s to getting back up once more 😌😌✨✨🧡🧡
