*dusts this blog off after sooo long*
heyo..... it's been a while since i've used this blog. so many things have happened in the past years & well, thankfully i'm still here!
first off, i've decided to change my url here from bam-o -> potatobam
so! I haven't really left tumblr. i've just been mostly posting at @gotchibam over the past years & making pokemon art there. I needed a fresh start at that time so I had to move blogs.
nowadays though..... i've been missing a lot of things. I feel like I might've isolated myself even further during that period so the longing for how things used to be has been getting to me now, I guess? I have a different main associated w/ that sideblog but i'm not really even posting there anymore (it's been more than a year I think). i've been stuck in a phase of "just gotta keep trying to get my life together first before I indulge in anything else" and tbh.... that has costed me a lot. i've had to put off talking w/ friends, participating in things I care about, & anything else really that isn't about working / trying to survive. it was difficult. even worse when I lost my mom last year. my dad already passed away last 2016 so it's just me and my younger brother now.
I am doing okay right now, just that I always have this feeling of wanting to reconnect w/ people. I couldn't back then as i'd always end up burying myself in commissions. especially during the time that my mom got sick & hospitalized. she's in a better place now, and I know that she'd want me to also make peace w/ that & change my life for the better.
sorry for the long post! just want to give people context as to why i've been inactive here & why I felt like coming back again. i'm not even sure if i'll really be active here, but I do like the idea that I have this place to fall back on. I did have this blog since 2015 & made a lot of memories w/ it, so the people & things i've experienced here feels familiar & comforting in a way.