@barneswinters
There was a beauty in simplicity. Life was — as a rule of thumb — complicated. Its sharp teeth spared no mercy when it opened its maw and ripped people apart. It was hard to deny that life was a bitch. A mean, messy, bitch. While that would normally warrant some appreciation, the world's commitment to screwing over those who lived in it was getting dreadfully old.
Complaining about it would have been too easy. The Red Room cultivated a strict vocabulary and severed the tongues of those who spoke out of turn. Even free from its hold, Yelena found no benefits in whining. Life dealt a shit hand, but that didn't guarantee a loss. As it stood, the former Widow was playing her cards close to her chest. Even now, in this strange new reality, she adapted. It was that or die — and death didn't seem interested in her yet. If she couldn't die, the least Yelena could do was enjoy herself.
Overall, it was easier said than done.
By disposition, Yelena found herself to be lighter (at times) than her upbringing would have permitted. That's not to say she was happy. There were moments of happiness, of course. Small choices like choosing to put a plaid jacket over plaid trousers felt like acts of defiance against the machine that had made her. Before, she was one bullet in the gun. Now, she was her own: autonomous and whole. And maybe, one day, she would be happy.
That being said, beautiful simplicity still lived in minor things. Case and point: macaroni & cheese with hot sauce. In her home reality, her apartment had a cabinet devoted solely to different hot sauces as she tried to determine which was the best. She had narrowed it down to three finalists, and they sat in a row on the countertop. Yelena had opted out of living in the Avengers Compound with the others who were stranded; she wasn't a team player (despite being on a team) and the desired solitude that came with having her own personal space. Still, she haunted the halls when the mood struck her. The other Thunderbolts weren't much for company — aka they sucked — and there was always a chance she could find out more about dear, darling, dead Natasha if she brushed elbows with the so-called heroes.
"Hey, hey," the pot in her hand waved as another entered the room. "Sit down." It's then that the face triggers something in her mind. James Buchanan Barnes: the Winter Soldier. Their connection to Mother Russia went uncommented on. "Your tastebuds are working, yes? I need them."











