" You always look so tired." Softly he comments, gaze tender and concerned. It's /difficult/ to approach Distra with such matters, but after all they'd gone through together how could he not ? " You are not Atlas. You needn't shoulder any burden alone. " A hand reaches out. Hesitates. Then falls back to Seissylt's side. He'd tried that once before -- it hadn't ended well. " Allow your friends to take some of the weight sometimes. Please. " (( stormblood maybe ? :Ic ))
TIRED was how he felt for years. War after war. Revelation upon revelation. His only escape was another one, across the sea, away from the frostbitten mountains. It was years that he had not been quite there. More so than ever now than ever before. Visions of the past etched into his mind.
All he could focus on was the glimmering sea. The fish. The sharks. The whales. He sat there for hours, lost in it all. Lost in the ocean like he used to be before. Staring into the deep blue and wondered if it stared back into him. It was so different this time. Filled with wonders he could barely fathom. And now that he could truly stare at what was beneath it, an entirely different world than his own. It comforted him in strange ways. A feeling similar to an antelope standing in fear as a hunter was about to kill it.
Seiss's approach is both welcomed and abhorred. The silence in his head he's so accustomed to now filled with thoughts of himself. How he should and shouldn't feel in regards to all of it. There was no one he could blame but himself, and only himself.
His body bristled at the outstretched hand. And yet cried to be held. To forget all his worries. "I'm fine." It comes out harsh. Too harsh. The depth of his own weakness pooled larger than what could be seen. Perhaps the other thought it was the death of their mutual friends: Papalymo, Haurchefant, and Ysayle. Or the traumatic experience of almost losing several of them. It was all that and more for Distra. But it was a burden he couldn't bring himself to share. He turns away. Turns back to the fish. To the ocean.
"I've learned to find comfort in this new world." He motions to the ocean. The rays of the sun barely penetrating Tamamizu. Dancing across the sandy bottom. Against the gold the kojin hoarded. "At least here I know the problem won't be able to follow me here." He smiles almost bitterly towards Seiss knowing how untrue it is. "I can be comforted by the fact that I'll be able to feel nothing in the ocean and let it carry away my worries. For as long as we're here at least." From the corner of his eye, he sees Lyse, and turns his gaze before envy consumes his soul. "And once we leave, I'm sure there will be another ocean I can vent my problems to." He shuts his eyes closed, taking it all in.