♣— Substantially dreaming. That's your first thought when you wake up in a place you wish you weren't in instead of regretting your past choices as if you're a sentimental killer or rather you're liberally vomiting all the disgusting downside of things. Lost ambition? More like a nightmare. People like it when you use wise words in a sentence but even so, it doesn't change the meaning, not at all. His thoughts were fleeting like endless particles of atoms. But it'll be best to describe them like ashes because if he could, he would burn them along with the holes of his past. A paper fell from his hand with nothing ever significant written on it and he bent down to pick it up and for some reason, with no emotion written in his face but emptiness, he didn't feel like standing anymore.