having ocd is so fun . some examples lately:
"hmm. i think i left clothes in the machine at the laundromat. i think i left VERY IMPORTANT ITEMS in the machine at the laundromat. i definitely left something important there. it's gone forever and i don't know what it is and i will probably never know."
"I CAN'T FIND MY PHONE, DID I ACCIDENTALLY PUT IT IN THE WATER WITH THE STUFF I'M WASHING?? I PROBABLY DID OF COURSE I WOULD WHY AM I SO-...oh. it was just buried under some stuff."
"i definitely left my wallet and my check in the uber. i definitely left my bag- oh it's right here. Is it? Let me make sure- no really, let me make sure it's definitely there. Okay... It is... For now... But is it?"
"hmmmmm. i am being punished for being not as nice that one time. i must be actively going through punishment because i masked less that one time. i should definitely mull over this trying to make sense of it. i should definitely think in circles around how it MUST be because i messed up, and i must always be messing up constantly otherwise i wouldn't go through anything negative."
"everything breaks because of me alone. i am the harbinger of pestilence and destruction. everything i touch goes to ruin. anything bad that happens in my life must be my own fault. everything that is happening now must be my own fault. maybe i'm stupid, maybe i'm careless, or maybe even i might just be cursed. yeah i probably am cursed and i probably am ontologically evil, that explains everything. i'm like a living omen."
