my heart is trembling and i don't know how to stop it. i can feel its sudden movements against my ribs, softly hitting every bone, testing, observing. testing what limits its movement, how easy would it be to escape? or is it not easy at all? is it stuck in this cage forever?
is this its home? is this place of suffering the one where it's supposed to stay forever? it wants to escape. it eats away at my soul, reminding me that it's stuck there, inside of my ribcage who won't give it even the smallest chance to escape.
it blames me. it blames me every day and night because i created this place. i kept throwing everything at it and expecting to keep up.
that's what it says anyway. but am i to blame? am i to blame for foolishly believing? in anything really. in love, in friendship, in family. am i really the one to blame? when it is the one who chooses who is deserving of my love and of my hatred?
