so you don’t consider yourself a good person?
“Woah, that’s- kind of a dramatic conclusion, don’t you think?” Comes his reply, laced with a playful tone that doesn’t feel as genuine as it should. “You’re making this seem more SERIOUS than it is, Cheery.”
The question seems preposterous, yet Varric’s immediate reply isn’t ‘no’. This gives him pause. There are many things in this world that puzzle him: the fade, red lyrium, dwarves. His identity, however, has never been one of those things. For as long as he can remember, Varric has been keenly aware of who he is and what he’ll never be. Everything he does he remembers, be it good or bad.
“Look, all I’m saying is that good and evil are- well, they’re difficult words to use.” Even for a writer.
“Okay, sure, sometimes you’re faced with something so AWFUL you can’t bring yourself to use any other word. Corypheus, for example: I’d say ‘scary, murderous darkspawn playing at god’ fits pretty well within my personal definition of ‘evil’.” He smiles. “Those are pretty rare, though. Almost every evil person I’ve met believed in something good, at some point. What are they? ‘Three quarters of evil’? Bah. And the same logic applies to so called good people. Even if they remain ‘good’ at their core, they’ll eventually fuck something up somewhere for someone.”
Varric shrugs coolly, addressing this unexpected conversation with the charm of a man plagued by his mistakes.
“I’m no exception. I was a prisoner when I came to Haven, if you didn’t know.” Crinkled eyes glint as a chuckle leaves the man’s lips. Those were strange times. If he and his brother were the reason red lyrium got into darkspawn hands, perhaps he’d deserved every second. “I like to think there are worst people than me, though.” And maybe that’s enough.