just spent 3 hrs at the dr and fighting the urge to call it a waste of time bc i have laundry dishes name change docs empty stomach etc waiting to be taken care of but reminding myself that the health list is a much more arduous and time consuming to do list to tackle than the business of life. telling myself to feel proud for getting my flu shot even if it shouldn’t be a big deal. it’s not about fear, it’s about actually prioritizing my health and well being, even when it’s inconvenient. and that is something to be proud of even if i don’t have a needle phobia. truly was a great drs appt though, got to spend 1+ hr talking about my health issues with a med student on her QUEER ROTATION (dead, bc that did not used to be part of medical school and love that for med school and absolutely should be as far as im aware) and my nonbinary pcp (blessed, but they have such sparse availability bc its kaiser). talked about hysterectomy and top surgery possibilities, not sure when i want to do that, but feeling the urgency of this incoming presidency like any other trans person in the us rn.
anyway, i am now off to in n out to get myself a double double bc i have not eaten today but made it on time without any ubers 100% on bus and feeling proud of that bc lately i have been struggling sm with getting places on time via public transportation (still getting the hang of this new life structure) which is harder in la bc the public transport is ass but will just take some recalibrating, and im sure will get easier over time. it’s already easier now that the weather has turned cooler, which makes the walking in between just so much more enjoyable. will rb w burger later 🫡