Dec 29, 2024
My new year's resolution is to escape from my abusers and live a life somewhat akin to the average human being. Not sure how. I've had ideas for permanent escape, both big and small, for years and years and years. It always fails spectacularly. Like chucking a ball across a field, and it doing an inexplicable 90-degree turn mid-way along. I've metaphorically fallen to my knees in utter shock so many times. The odds are not on my side. But... who knows? Right? This time around... maybe? I'm still... just about mentally in one piece. I'm a pro masker, so if I can hold it all together until I find a solution. If I can just find that illusive exit door. Here's hoping.
#I had this idea yesterday#of cosplaying an entirely different personality#as a means to escape#like parking my actual persona aside#kill the empathy#be arrogant#and abrupt#and extroverted and blunt and...#it would be hard to maintain for longer than a day though...#I would be kind of scared of losing myself too in a way#imagine if being a prick actually worked
