#be1ly

[con2ad]

when conrad got back to cousins, the house wasn't empty anymore, but it was all wrong. the furniture was in the wrong place, a lot of it in the wrong rooms. everything was boxed up, but aunt julia at least had the movers mark their names on the boxes. the summer house would always be susannah's house. even though she was gone, he could still feel her magic in that house with them. he didn't feel that magic when they walked in to find the whole place gutted. it felt haunted, and not in a good way. the bedrooms were last, and he ripped the bandaid off. everything in his mom's room had to go back exactly where it was before, right down to the afghan she kept angled over the corner of her bed. he didn't move on until everything was exactly where it was supposed to be. he unpacked his own room next, then laurel's, steven's, jeremiah's, and . . . belly's.

aside from his mom's room, @be1ly 's was the hardest, not because he didn't know where everything went, but because his heart was still breaking. it was important that the house was finished though, so he got to work. some of the clothes she left behind were hung up in the closet, and some were folded and put more neatly into her drawers than she would have ever done for herself. he almost took his cousins rowing shirt back but realized he didn't want it anymore. the memories that shirt stirred up . . . he kept going until everything was back in it's place. junior mint was sitting on her dresser, but he couldn't bring himself to replace the glass unicorn. he remembered buying it for her like it was yesterday. her smile was impossible to forget. he was still holding the figurine when he heard a noise behind him, and turned to look over his shoulder. belly was standing there in the doorway to her room. he put the unicorn down and walked toward the door. "i didn't know you guys would be back so soon. everything should be back where it was before. i was just leaving," he lied as he tried to pass her in the doorway, wanting to be anywhere but there as all the oxygen was sucked out of the room.

[jer3miah]

i hope if everyone leaves ,  you choose to stay .

so much has been met with the inevitable fate that awaits all.   change, everything meets it at one point or another.     due to that, there are some things that he’s come to long accept, that in life one is only ever certain of two things — that everything is to ultimately change with time, and that someday, somehow, everyone dies.     the latter isn’t a musing that keeps him up at night anymore, he’s as at peace as he can be with it.     it’s been almost six years since his mom was laid to rest, they’ve all graduated, conrad’s in medical school, and although everything has transformed in numerous ways, some things weren’t permanent.     his mom’s in everything he does, she’s in the very wind, she’s in his heart and from there she’ll never leave.     there are also things that have changed for the better.     he and belly, there has been many shifts in their friendship — but she’s a change that found its way back, their friendship now stronger than ever.

his arm is slung over her shoulders as they watch the sun descend past the horizon at cousins beach, bailey digging a hole so deep in the sand that he’s half convinced she’ll reach earth’s core.     ❝     hey, no one else is gonna leave, not now at least.     definitely not conrad.     ❞     he reassures softly, that’s something that’s always come naturally to him.     caring for her, easing her worries, it’s so inherent for him.     he’s no longer riddled in discomfort by the mention of conrad and belly’s relationship.     instead, he only wishes them a lifetime of contentment.     tucking her in closer as a gust of wind rattles through them, he rests his cheek against the crown of her head.     ❝     i’m not going anywhere, belly button.     i’ll always be here for you.     ❞     without warning or summoning, bailey glances up from the depths of her sand crater, halting just before breaking out into a sprint toward them — bulldozing into belly’s legs.     ❝     and apparently so will bailey.     ❞

music for the soul sentence starters, accepting. i hope if everyone leaves, you choose to stay.

[neveraftersbye]

why does beck think her name is lola ? for you know who hehehe

a smile lit up andrés' whole face, showing off the wrinkles crinkles around his eyes. "—because, niña, the first time i met your daughter, i said to her, i said ¡hola! and she thought i was calling her lola. i tried to correct her, but she was not having it so now she is lola, and she thinks it is funny when i say ¡hola lola!"

[forbaesmoved]

@be1ly ♡'d !

                    ❝     you know you're gonna have to choose at some point, right?     ❞  

[con2ad]

he didn't know how long he stood there. time stood still as his brain tried to process what was happening. a couple was making out. on his car. it was his brother. and his girl— his ex girlfriend. jeremiah and @be1ly were kissing. on his car. she was still wearing his god damn brown sweatshirt. it was too much. he cleared his throat. time stopped standing still. jeremiah was looking at him. belly was looking at him. he couldn't look at either one of them.

he lifted his gaze to the sky first, looking at anything but the two people in front of them. he couldn't even give them an excuse, hell, he wasn't sure they deserved one. so he turned on his heel, and he walked away before he said something he would regret. he walked back toward the same dorm he just left. he left his heart on the sidewalk back there. he was heartless, a tinman. he didn't feel anything. he was just numb. because if he let himself feel all of it, if he let himself feel any of it, that would be his breaking point.

[con2ad]

this sums up the group chat pretty well tbh

[con2ad]

xoxo mrs. isabel susannah fisher 💙 ( who tf SNORES ON UR BINGO CARD CONDAD ????? )

silly belly, i fixed it for you 😌 perfect score !!

[con2ad]

( anon ) how often does conrad use his medical degree to get kisses ( this totally isnt idabel asking )