#beacon's personal

[furiousbeacon]

I hate having a little brother as arrive them because it's like Dang, I'm gonna have to cut ties with you when you turn 12 Like it'll be easy He's 10 years younger than me I'll be 22. But it'll be sad because he's my brother you know.

[perpetualelementalcrucible]

I think it's funny that tra's often say that teenage rad fems *are being groomed by women Pedophiles*, when being in a radical feminist space allowed me to realize that I was groomed by a female pedophile because up until a point I legit thought that my situation and situations like mine were okay, and that's a scary notion.

[furiousbeacon]

Why do trans people or the trans community overall just are weird about children.

"You're Infantilizing a vulnerable population" maybe because we're freaking children?

[furiousbeacon]

hate people who don't self reflect on every level

I hate straight people so much because like nobody takes the LGB community seriously now because all these straight people are so guilty, so they make all these new labels to avoid being oppressed When you look it up, and when you think about it, they've never actually been oppressed and it gets my freaking nerves, because every time I say this, somebody doesn't even say anything All they do is say you're wrong because they don't want to confront their own biases.

i'm sick of people being scared of saying they did something wrong. I can admit to my wrongdoings l can admit them to myself and others And if you can't admit wrongdoings and actually try to get better, you need a therapist.

[furiousbeacon]

The Great Shift/11th rule of misogyny. PT1

(I'm very very very aggravated with the Great Shift So I'm going to make a part about every rule of misogyny that they tend to use, This one get's kinda personal in the end)

It's happening The Great Shift is fully happening now. It happens every time women get some recognition for their pain, it gets angled back on men within the next few years and once women stop fighting people leave it alone. It happened with the me-too movement. now I can't go three scrolls without someone talking about a woman abuser, like its happening at the same rates as men While also never talking about F/F abuse. What I find is crazy is that these people that are making these Very stilted "Awareness" content are never actually male victims. I've noticed with a staggering Accuracy. That the people who make these videos are Either well-meaning but male centered women, left leaning misogynist male, or a right winger who's trying to justify male violence. And just to be clear I'm not mad because they're calling out women. I'm mad because they act like women are doing it at the same rates and in the same ways. They're not. That one percent out of 99 is still a lot of people. And I am angry. I'm so freaking angry my and many others' experiences are always shoved under the rug by these people Supposedly raising awareness Because it doesn't fit the message that men have it just as bad.

In the end they end up silencing other victims more than anything by making it about gender. I cannot count the times on my vent account that people say something to the tune of: "Those bad women they never get in trouble for hurting males" (because they always assume I'm male for some reason) or are talking about how much they hate women in the comments. I end up deleting the post every time because I just cannot deal with that.

These people do not care about victims. They just dont. They care about "gender wars". They care about silencing women, even if they don't know they do. They care about blaming women, or justifying men

next part will be on Rule 1/ Men are deviants because women groomed them.

[furiousbeacon]

You know the First time I read radical feminist literature I was like twelve because I decided to look up the porn industry after listening to asia erotica's song hollywood dream.

[furiousbeacon]

Yelling because im angry and want to rant

i'm sure someone's already said this but this post is just really fucking stupid and i'm already upset so I want something to yell at.

1- NOBODY LIKES BEING A GIRL. You were so correct, everything that is girly is always frivolous, weak, and very uncomfortable. Every girl has had the thought and has expressed it in some way that they would rather be a man, however most of us knew this is an impossibility

2- because it hasn't been popular in easily accessible until now. Though it has existed for a while now it was barely popular. the number of male-to-female transitioners even in the early days versus female-to-male transitioners was way lower because people actually acknowledged it as dangerous and because women didn't have freedom to do this.

3- the amount of stuff that happens all over the world, even in the most privaged of places, no one wants to be a woman unless they're getting off. If you honestly think that women want to be women you're out of your head.

[perpetualelementalcrucible]

this is honestly me just being selfish. But I do, for some reason, feel the need to say this on tumblr of all places.

i feel like people forget how much incest ruins people for generations or not really people but aspects about them. My mom over the course of at least four years was raped by an uncle of hers, if there's anything i've known about my mother my entire life it's that. To the point that that's almost all she is to me because that's all she talks about to me whenever I say anything.

Because of this (her assault) i have never had a social life. Never. I was never allowed to go to other people's houses.No one else was allowed to go to my house.And I wasn't allowed to go to social events. Even now, she has a parental app on my phone Which keeps me under lock & key I am not allowed to talk to anyone unless she approves them on her phone and i'm not allowed to take pictures.

And to be honest she is right to do this. I understand. But because of this, I don't have any friends and I will never have any friends as long as I am A child.

Even when I was good at social stuff at school, everyone liked me but nobody really was friends with me Because everyone else, everyone they were friends with they got to do things outside of school. They got to have sleepovers or go to birthday parties or even just have a play date.

I was never allowed to do these things because my mom was afraid and she was/is right to be afraid.

Pair this with basically talking about her assault At any chance that she gets, I was afraid too. But I was lonely.

This leads to my second part of all this.

During covid, I recognized that no one almost no one I'd ever be close to as friends. I will always be chosen second. I also found out I was gay. During this time my parents were working alot and because they were truck drivers, they were almost never home. Eventually, they got scared, leaving me alone, and my mom hired a babysitter that was her friend's kid she was 17 i was 11 at the time and for the first time in any point in my life, I felt close to someone Truly close. I had a crush on her and she reciprocated we started "dating" and stuff happened. But anyway long story short it wasn't good

And i'm in the trenches when it comes to my mount hulves again and I keep thinking If my mom's life were different, would all this have happened? Because i'm gonna be honest I failed her as a daughter. Because I'm 100% sure that She didn't talk about what happened to her as a kid because she wanted to.But she did to try to protect me, and I didn't listen.. because it wasn't like I was innocent about what happened. I knew fully well What was happening and I let it happen anyway.

So I am going to step off my soapbox Now.

( Is the format is weird or there's some mistakes and the grammar?And there's random periods and spaces.It's because I was recording this on voice.And I was kind of crying the whole time)