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[bisexualhobi]

Anaaaa!! Hobi's phsyical album !!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉 Fucking finally!!!!!!

i just saw!!! AND FUCK EVERYONE WHO EVER TOLD US THE BULLSHIT NFT ALBUM WAS HIS IDEA OR WHAT HE EVER WANTED

[bisexualhobi]

heyyy, how are you doing :/?

hi! ehh tbh not so good since i didn't really like hoseok's new album 😔 i think it has some good songs but overall i can't get excited about it and share that joy w the rest of his fans but it's ok. I'm still looking forward to lollapalooza and to see him do promo for the album (if he does any)

but other than that work has been tough and super busy these weeks so that makes me stressed out and i end up not enjoying my time there even though i like my job. i guess i was really looking forward to hobi's album making it easier for me to have fun and distract myself but sadly that's not the case.....

what did you think of his album btw?

[bisexualhobi]

I was thinking about this and this (like between their burnout, overworking, and hoseok having had a big performance, and his character in general tbh) and i wonder if them having had covid affects them as well..cause their vocals haven't ever been their strong point, but it feels like it's all been declining a lot more. I haven't finished watching the concert...but it's not great. And hoseok would have been building up and strengthening far more than the rest since their hiatus started. idk...just thinking..

wait you know what that actually does make a lot of sense! they're one of the few groups where all the members have had covid and all in the past year.... we know that covid has ramifications far past the infection period and having a mild case doesn't mean you don't suffer from long term effects :/ this is really scary if you think about it and it would explain why bts looks far more worn out than other groups in similar schedules

[bisexualhobi]

annnaaa i hope you never let go of username bisexualhobi!!! hobi my bi baby ana my baby,,,my babies! lourveee youuuiu💗💗💗💗💖💗💞

HDKSJDKDJF BEAN OMG THAT WAS SO INCREDIBLE!!!!! THANK YOU SM I TRULY CAN'T BELIEVE THIS REALLY HAPPENED 😭😭😭😭

you're so sweet ily too I will never change my url now!!! and YOU WERE LUCKY ENOUGH TO SEE IT LIVE!! you've been blessed hdjshsjdjd thank you sm I hope you loved every second of it and had a great time! 💖

[bisexualhobi]

oh saw your tags on the bibi gif set and didn't know if you saw this, but tigerjk released a statement on his twitter and bibi went on live again (she posted some clips on her twitter)

and this was a translation of bibi's official ig post on it:

oh thank you i did see some of this and I'm glad the label spoke up about it. still very concerning that she's under so much pressure she acts out like this but I get the recording can be very stressful.. hope she gets to rest soon enough!

[bisexualhobi]

Hey! I saw this anon’s ask and wanted to write in a little if that’s ok. (Also thank you to the anon for bringing this up and you Ana for opening up this space/topic here).

I’m not entirely sure how to feel…when I first heard, it was..well exactly as the anon said - it feels weird when people from our country of origin talk who don’t live here talk about racism for us here. Yes they (BTS) have been working here, and more so recently, but they don’t and haven’t lived here. It’s a very different experience, especially during/with the pandemic when asian hate crimes/microaggressions/racism rose, to live here or grow up here. So at first, I felt a mixed bag of things - confusion, discomfort, and then tried to get a little excited?

I think Sandra Oh (or maybe it was someone else, I can’t remember) pointed out that growing up as the minority is such a different experience and that we’ll never know otherwise. Never know what it’s like to not have to think about how we look or act or who we are because we didn’t grow up with the majority of people looking like us or sharing a culture with us or speaking a same language/sharing a mother tongue. It’s first, or starts as, a very subconscious thing and then, personally, it felt devastating and sad to realize that and have to contend with everything that it entails. And a point anon brought up that’s important is that it’s not just growing up here, but also minorities that live here, which BTS do not. 

Day to day, it’s a different life experience. It’s exhuasting to have to sit uncomfortable in your own skin. And be stared at cause you have different skin. And then be asked questions about ‘what are you’ and ‘what’s your nationality’ and called ‘exotic’, etc, etc. And then, there’s the little pockets we have to carve out for ourselves and fill with our culture, language, etc. 

(sorry I really delved away from the topic here, but my point is that the small day to day things shape your life and identity and views. And racism, hate crimes, microagressions, etc just pile on top of that and shrink me. 

And another big point is that no doubt that BTS experience racism, they’ve had death threats made against them, and the way they’ve been treated and asked questions and talked to by some interviewers in the US is abymsal, and none of this is to minimize how awful that is and how it affects them. it’s just a different experience as an asian American that I’m not sure this is the right space for them. (and they don’t fit everywhere, no one does) 

Talking about experiences, like yesterday, I had to watch kids from a nearby school marching about how they should have been safe and saying ’no to guns and violence’ - like that comes from this American gun culture that they, BTS, don’t have to contend with or live with (geographically) in the same way)

Anyways, then I sorta tried to make myself get excited cause in the spaces I’ve seen so far, that’s the general feel of this announcement - that people are excited/proud of this upcoming meeting and discussion. Cause it does say something that this is the administration/president they are coming to see and be associated with and to a certain degree, BTS are apolitical. Or actually, rather they work in vagueries that pull in a wider range of people. Cause I think when you have broad messages, less people are offended. And more projections on them can be made that fit our own ideals because they just haven’t given specificities. So who we want them to be fits under that big umbrella. And however this administration is, they’re still associated with a party and certain liberal ideals/values that maybe BTS are ‘aligning’ with. (I say ‘aligning with’ very loosely) (hope I didn’t ramble too much here and it makes a little sense)

All that said, it’s also just my initial reaction and thoughts for an announcement. I’m (obviously) waiting to see what it’ll end up being when they talk next week. And maybe it’ll be a show of support and not to talk over asian american (AANHPI) experiences here (though to show support, do they have to come to the white house and have a ‘discussion’ about it themselves? Idk honestly…) So, further thoughts and feelings I’m trying to reserve until what they actually talk about and present is done. Hoping it isn’t talking over people (minorities) in the US...

Yeah, it’s just only how I feel. (Also, I didn’t go back and re-read or edit this, so hopefully my thoughts (and excessive as hell use of parentheses) weren’t too confusing.) Thanks again to the anons and you Ana for asking, for making some space.

absolutely thankful for your insight right here bean (i always call u bean omg is that ok?) this is very helpful for me and i hope it'll help my followers understand the nuisance of this situation better

listen to the asian diaspora. listen to asian american voices. listen to first generation immigrants. uplift their voices because we live in times where asian hate but specially asian immigrant hate is at an all time high!

[bisexualhobi]

Annnnaaa! The 'Eat your heart out' playlist!! I’m loving it! I’ve only finished listening to Side 1 so far. but !!! 🔥❤️‍🔥😶‍🌫️😵🧠💋💓😈⚰️🔮🔥 I’ve never listened to PIXY before and really loved the couple songs you had included by them - definitely going to check out more of their stuff. The comedown of songs at the end of Side 1 between ‘Fuck with myself’ and ‘tail’ were perfect! (I made a couple playlists after ‘illusion’ and it was cool to me the overlap between what you have and what i did ☺️) And i loved the billie eilish picks too! Those were some of the first songs I heard by her back when she released them and it was really fitting here. I had fun listening so far! Thank you for putting this together! I love love how you divided it by the two sides and the graphics you put up with the tracklists. (I’ll come back after listening to side 2 if that’s ok!) Hope you’re well! ❤️

hi bean!! ah this is so sweet thank you sm for this message <33 it really means a lot when ppl enjoy my playlists. i take them very seriously hdkdjdjfj and also yes i really did have a hard time making a coherent narrative that fit both lyrically and melodically for the songs so that's why i ended up dividing it in two sides....just fyi side 2 is much more experimental and w hard noisy beats lmao. but i hope you like it

also omg you should link me to those illusion playlists you made! curious to hear the vibe!!

[bisexualhobi]

Hey Ana! just dropping by, how are you?

hiii what's up thanks for checking in!! i'm alright just super busy at the moment with real life stuff. i had a work trip out of the country that got cut short because my grandmother passed away this week. i've been having too many things to attend to so that's why i've been inactive but tbh i don't feel like being active here much either :/ all the bts shit going on makes me more annoyed than anything - as always make sure to follow me on my other blog where i'm way more active if any of you feel like it! @theboytatu

(before sending in condolences i assure you i'm completely fine and while i appreciate signs of empathy it's truly a complicated family history so let's just say i wasn't close to her... either way i'm trying to be there for my family right now which is what matters. thanks to everyone in advance 🙏)