Feb 23, 2017
My aunt always tells my mother off for raising me . For the fact I’m “always on a computer” and don’t have a job. I struggle so much with social anxiety these meds just make me feel so sick. I’m often in so much pain it hurts to walk. I do something like vaccuming and after 5 minutes I can barely stand. You can’t tell those things by looking at me.
I’m so torn. Go to Nelson, live with friend. Possible chance to run into family/mr scary creep. Meet`babynephew Stay in Wellington: live with 12 flatmates. Inconsiderate, rude. Feel safe and stable at Anna’s. Worry I’ll annoy them/be a problem. Because lately I hear things that aren’t there. I know I’ve been strong though. This whole time I ran away. `