BEAU’S DEAL TO ISHARNAI. SOMEBODY SEDATE ME I’m going to walk into the ocean.
“Y’all are the greatest family I could ever ask for. I can’t, I can’t top this, you know”. SHE’S WILLING TO CUT TIES AND NEVER RETURN/SEE ANY OF THE MIGHTY NEIN EVER AGAIN, IF IT’S A CHANCE NOTT WILL GET TO BE VETH AGAIN.
To walk away from the best thing she’s ever known, to ensure Nott gets her body back, so a little kid can have a family who truly, deeply loves and cares for him. Beau’s self loathing is so deep that she’s positive it will fuel a Hag who thrives on misery. Her fear that her found family will abandon her/leave her, like she was thrown out already by her father, so she’s jumping ahead of them, making that choice for them. Don’t worry, I already know I’m unloveable and that it’s hard to care for me. I’ll make it easier. I’ll leave. You won’t need to do it, to tell me. I’ll spare you the difficulties and do it myself. oh Beau. OH BEAUUUU.
Beauregard Lionett, if you have a million fans, then I am one of them. If you have ten fans, then I am one of them. If you have only one fan then that is me. If you have no fans, then that means I am no longer on earth.
If the world is against Beauregard Lionett, then I am against the world.