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Something something Cale crashing out at someone from his fam.

But his crashing out isn't just yelling, instead he's gasping for breath with the way he's speaking so fast, so restlessly, his voice is raised and his hands are shaking as he tries to control his words and get himself to calm down but to no avail.

At who? Maybe Alberu, he's one of the few people Cale can afford to act so raw in front of (and not his children). Maybe the man was trying to object to Cale's plan, maybe it involved something Cale knew was going to happen from the novel (or something he just felt really sure of) yet he couldn't explain it and all Alberu was seeing was that the redhead could get hurt no matter what benefits they achieved and Cale felt so frustrated that he somehow lashed out instead.

And it isn't how one usually lashes out, it's Cale standing up quickly and taking raspy breaths and he's trying to explain the logic, the rationale behind it all as best as he can but all he can hear is a pounding in his ears and his words aren't quite forming and his body is quivering and so is his voice and all he can see is Alberu's shocked expression in front of him and he feels so so sorry-

And maybe Alberu hastily walks to him, he says something reassuring or something like 'calm down' and that just. makes the redhead freeze. Because he is calm. He's not shouting and he's not crying he's thinking calmly and he's explaining himself so calmly and its not him who's not understanding it's Alberu-

And maybe something slips out then, a comment that he never would've made. Something like 'stop being so unreasonable'? or just something vague like 'stop doing that' but his face is so filled with disgust and hatred (that Alberu doesn't realise is directed towards Cale himself)?

or at Choi Han, maybe. or someone from Og! Cale's family, and he didn't mean to raise his voice, he didn't mean to be annoyed by something so trivial but he's just angry that they're caring about him as a family and he doesn't know how to accept it all so easily and he knows it's unreasonable but he's so horribly sad that this was what he had missed out on, this was what made him feel so alienated from others and yet he still can't accept it. And the guilt is only doubled, since it wasn't even his own family that he had treated so rudely.

Just, yk, Cale finally breaking down from all the overwhelming stress and trauma and still managing to control himself and not lash out on someone innocent, yet still blaming himself for how like a trash he had acted, whether the reason was justified or not.

#tcf prompt #cale henituse #need me more of Cale being angry or just shouting in general #which is not aimed at his enemies but rather his fam #because man #you can't tell me the stress and everything doesn't get to him at times #trash of the count’s family #tcf #lcf #kinda headcanon #tcf novel

Look. Being in love with a fictional character is rough. But wait until YOUR fictional character is in love with another fictional character. That's where the real hell starts

#riley x everyone #riley x lydia #this especially applies #to oc x oc #because MAN #every song #is about them

"Occtis died under Taisha's care, if he's going to survive it'll be because of me"

Really, Vaelus? On that note, how's Sylandrí doing these days?

#this is NOT meant as a criticism I love what Ashley's doing with this character #also I think she may be using Occtis as a way to both deflect from her own grief and project her self loathing onto others #because MAN #imagine being the protector for a being of pure life and then that being DIES under your watch #girl your hypocrisy is sexy asf #critical role #cr4 #cr spoilers #vaelus

2025-10-03

Life is too short to punish yourself.

Put that extra spoon of sugar in your coffee, bask in the afternoon sun, order that fancy treat.

Forgive yourself for your mistakes.

No one else can do it for you.

#haven’t posted dark academia esque things in a bit #but my lecture hall is so DA #I love it #and this library is also so aesthetic #forgive the caption for not being exactly studyblr #I have a lot of feelings and thoughts rn #because man #I’m so glad I’m still here #studyblr #studyspo #study aesthetic #dark academia #aesthetic #student #my posts #chaotic academia #study

"If the world forgave you, would you stop punishing yourself?"

The 'yes or no' game. Send my muse "❓+" alongside harsh hitting questions, scenarios, anything question-related really, but they can only answer with "yes" or "no". Nothing more, nothing less.

"No." Zeno said without skipping a beat, lighting up a cigarette and inhaling the fumes. He relishes the sting of tobacco curling in his lungs, like how a lover's hand would feel caressing his insides. The very act had brought death to countless many but ecstasy to even more, Zeno committing himself to the deadly habit despite the potential of health issues brewing down the line. Forgiveness. What a joke. Zeno had been forged from sin itself, his very blood stolen from a man who was a monster in his own right. In some strange form of karmic justice, he'd been created to both continue and be punished for his predecessor's sins, chained by an organization who would have rather had the real deal than the life they'd ended up creating instead. That's not to say Zeno's hands were clean, far from it. They'd pointed him down the road they wanted him to go and he'd followed without question, first because he didn't know how to, then because they'd forbade it. How many lives had he'd taken? Well over a hundred. Closer to five hundred maybe, and that's not counting all the lives his actions had indirectly caused. Selling BOW's to rogue bioterrorist groups. Silencing witnesses for the Connections. He'd performed many acts of great cruelty and worse, stood by and watched as more happened like with Grace's clones. Innocent little girls whose only crime had been to possess blood knowledge of a password from their original's life. He's not looking for forgiveness. Lord knows he's done plenty for the world to hate him as it is even if he hadn't been crafted from the blood of a most infamous bioterrorist, his DNA tweaked further to be obedient. To follow without question. Zeno could deny it all he wanted. To plead ignorance and claim this was what he was made for but deep down he knew he enjoyed a lot of what he'd done and didn't regret it either. It wasn't the virus in his blood or the genetics he'd carried that made him do so, no. He'd enjoyed it because he could, and there was no lying about that.