#becoming sam

[stele3]

For a variety of reasons, I can't legally change my name right now. But this morning I stood up in front of my church and said my name was Sam, and a congregation of old Christians doused my head with water and anointed me with oil and cheered.

Christianity can be good. To say it's all bad is to give too much ground to the assholes who want to use my faith as an excuse to hate people like me. I've chosen to say my name is Sam and that I walk with Christ, which to me means that if I encounter a beggar I give whatever's in my wallet; it means that I assume the best of others and give them the opportunity to have grace, too; it means that I don't jealously covet anything, but go through life with constant belief that the world is wonderful and good, and that hope is not naïve but is vital and strategic.

I'm a non-binary person and I came out to my church today, and they loved me better for it. The world can be a wonderful place.

[thesamthatiam]

Hello everyone! I think one of the most common pre top surgery anxieties is trying to figure out what on earth you need to bring with you and have prepared. I see this question pop up online all the time. The answers are all pretty similar but there are definitely some things that are more needed than others. In this video I go through the things that I felt were essential for a good top surgery experience.

[stele3]

I love the old folks at church so much. They’re like, 70’s and 80’s and using walkers, and they all call me “he” so carefully. Which isn’t quite right, I’m they/them and nb, but you know what, I’ll take it. They a little confused but they got the spirit.

[stele3]

Hey how high does your natural, homegrown AFAB testosterone have to be before you’re considered intersex? Does 127 count? Asking for a friend………the friend is me, I’m the friend.

[stele3]

My client: “Are you sick?”

Me, speaking in a voice that’s an octave lower than it was two months ago, shoving a vial of T deeper in my pocket: “𝐍𝐨, 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭?”

[stele3]

Does ANYONE know a good provider in the Portland area who can prescribe testosterone and accepts Providence Health Insurance?? I just took my last dose of T and I'm getting desperate. And do not suggest Planned Parenthood, please, unless you have a direct line to someone; I have been trying to make an appointment with them for literally two months and this is the message that I keep getting.

[stele3]

I keep breaking into Christmas carols, not because I’m feeling festive but because I’ve realized that after a year on t I’m a tenor now, and the novelty is pretty fun.

[stele3]

This is my first summer on testosterone and I am HOT. ALL THE TIME. So much male behavior makes so much more sense to me now that I know that they're hot all the time.

I might have to get top surgery in self-defense.