#bee's journal

[matchaandsoftserve]

I GOT TO SEE THE LAST DINNER PARTY LIVE :DDDD IT WAS AMAZINGGGGG :3

abigail morris was kinda drunk because they went to. two bars before the show. and she had three beers and a whiskey it was sooooo fun :3 kazoos.......

it was so lovely and fun getting to see them live <3 :3

[frida-bee]

more pages from my 1 page at a time journal! did another collage, which im really diggin!

[matchaandsoftserve]

look at this bug (i miss you)

the sky was pretty (i miss you)

i went on a walk today (i miss you)

do you want to hear about my day (i miss you)

i saw a cat! (i miss you)

how was your day (i miss you)

i miss you

[matchaandsoftserve]

i almost cried writing on my friend's senior poster closing night is gonna be rough isn't it i don't even want to think about graduation oh my god

i wrote stuff that's like. not as meaningful and whatever as i wanted to but also i couldn't think of better things to write without tearing up so i ended up with like "i'm going to miss you a lot next year. it's been so much fun being in shows with you and getting to be your friend. something something i'm going to bother you extra once you move :)" because i had to say something silly that also implies that we will stay in contact once they move away

i also fucking suck at being honest to my friends about how much i care about them bc i'm always afraid of being weird but i am going to make a card for once they graduate that says more things i think

[matchaandsoftserve]

my brother turns 13 this friday ????

what :0

he's going to be a teenager

this means my birthday's soon too

i'm gonna be old (er)

[matchaandsoftserve]

i kind of want to cut my hair shorter so it's fluffy and has more layers but also i don't want to cut my hair bc i like it long. and it would take a while to grow back and if i didn't like my hair being short i would just be stuck with it and my face is like. too round and i'm afraid i would hate it

[matchaandsoftserve]

i NEED to hang out with my friend a bunch soon before they move and graduate and i can't but there's no time

this weekend is the musical so we're both busy and my grandparents are gonna be here and then it's last week of school and then finals and then they graduate and we won't be attending the same school anymore and then they're going back to their old town to see their friends and boyfriend graduate and i don't know how soon that is after their graduation but i think it's pretty soon and then when they get back they're bringing their boyfriend and i probably won't be able to hang out with them as much bc they'll be with him and/or bringing him with them (like for the tadc finale that we're all going to see together) and then it won't be the same arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[matchaandsoftserve]

i am feeling lots of things right now

the awards ended right as the sun was setting and the light changed and it was really pretty

i wish i'd hugged them again but i can do it tomorrow

i hope i don't cry tomorrow

i hope i cry

i hope we all cry

i don't want them to leave