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[beedalee]

me: *editing photos, minding my own business*

professor oak, appearing in my brain:  W O N D E R F U L

[beedalee]

ugh. deviantart eclipse is coming and i’m soooo not ready to learn the interface AND wade through the pages of backlog in comments and activity i’ve totally neglected for the last year.. or two....

i really want to have all my notifications cleaned out so i can start fresh when i’m unable to change back. ughhh the one thing I DON’T love cleaning and organizing is my darn deviantart but i’m too sentimental to just mass-delete everything! why am i like this! 😭😭

i’m not leaving dA so anyone watching me there rest assured, but i do think the interface change is forcing me to rethink about how i present my work and how accessible my work is to people, especially those leaving the website.... i do think it’s messy as heck right now as an interface, but i am hoping that once it’s implemented they’ll be able to make bigger improvements on everything.  🙏🏻

*rolls around and continues to procrastinate on it, of course*

[beedalee]

It's my birthday (i am 30) and im happily spending it doing a cozy rainy day indoor movie/game marathton with @dyemelikeasunset soo I'm gonna resume inktober backlog tomorrow! 👍

[beedalee]

oh my god i got tempted to play with the new beta tumblr color palettes and didn’t realize it’d updated my whole interface and broke xkit and i nearly got bombarded with all the steven universe future sPOILER TAGS I’d BLACKLISTED until i could watch it tonight *DEEP WHEEZE*

anyway i fixed it so if anyone else did a oops like i did xkit posted about it here and you can change opt-out of the beta in your dashboard settings

rb to save a life for any of those who have important tags you need blacklisted 😅😅

[beedalee]

logged onto neopets because i was possessed and the brief rush of nostalgia was abruptly ended by just how demanding and messy the interface and rules and economy and everything is oh my god how did i enjoy this site when i was 10??? i’m getting executive dysfunction just navigating 

but i got to paint one of my neopets an amazing color so yolo i guess.......

[beedalee]

so january’s focus was cleaning, organizing, and purging. Our room, my workspace, my hoard of crafting supplies, and even more formidable: my artwork files. i spent a lot of the month scanning my sketchbook (finally omfg) and doing a loooot of sorting. (i guess i don’t have a lot of photo-proof to share of this process outside of a few pretty cube bins over on my craft blog, but it was more of a personal journey anyway.) Instead I’m gonna use february to kinda highlight all the fruits of my labor in the artwork department. +_+ SO!

feburary’s focus is posting art- all the wip sketches i take pretty photos of but never post, all the traditional work i’m finishing, all the art sitting in my files waiting for me to stop feeling bad about myself and post them already, all the wips that need to just go into a sketchdump and be done with for the foreseeable future.... all of it, so I can focus on the pieces I still feel passionate about!!! i also want to take this chance to try being less compulsive about how neat or clean or perfected my shared work is because it absolutely frightens me out of sharing it. i want it out of my drafts and off my guilty mind 😐

february let’s GO!

[beedalee]

impromptu 2020 resolution: i’m not allowed to zoom in past 200% on anything ever again 😭😭

[beedalee]

Happy new year!

Been quiet for the last two weeks- been reveling in the good feelings of our first Christmas in the new apartment and celebrating New Year's, which is also Nafisah and I's 11th anniversary! It’s only the second one we’ve been able to celebrate in person together! (The first one was when we first met IRL in 2012! If Bee back then could have known the next time we’d celebrate it would be in our new apartment, wow... 💦)

Anyway, we spent the first week of the new year re-arranging our bedroom and doing a little home decor shopping. I got spoiled and taken to an IKEA for the first time ever (wow... it’s like... an alternate furniture dimension...) I also did a fair amount of early-bird spring cleaning! Even though it’s still a work in progress and I’m kinda sore, I’m feeling excited! 🥰❤️

I’ve been feeling pretty guilty for being so super inactive and having (what I felt was) very little to show for it- but after being so shut-in for such a huge portion of my young adult life, I feel like my relationship with the internet needed to evolve. I need to step away from the computer as emotional life-support, from art as an escape from depression, from my obligation to feel productive and entertaining on social media at all times. But I really do miss the way it inspires me to share my work and connect with people, so... please pardon me while I find a good balance of everything. (Being super isolated really does a number on your stamina, who would have thought? 😅)

I was stressing about getting a new year resolutions post up before the 1st, but now that it’s passed I feel like it was also just an obligation. Large vague goals that hang over my head all year don’t usually get done to any degree of satisfaction anyway, or I forget them 6 months in. What I really want to do is focus on monthly mini goals, and developing small habit changes. I have a pretty poor perception of time and self-motivating a schedule is so difficult for me to keep up with- so I think the smaller-scale I make my goals, the healthier it is for me.

Because the first week of Jan was spent rearranging and re-orienting our space, I think I want to January’s focus to be on cleaning up and cleaning out. I have quite a bit of old art hanging out in my folders and drafts that needs to go up, sketchbook art that needs to be scanned and collected into dumps, inktobers waiting to be finished, old challenges that I abandoned and should just post for posterity, etc-- so all of that will be first, and a good buffer while I do things around the house and continue with backlog commissions.

I guess that’s enough for now- I have stuff to do! *rolls up sleeves* o(・_・)9