#bellbaron

[wxndswept]

Eula: Go do the dishes you filthy wh0re

Beaumont: Yes of course

[lunaetis]

" Simp is short for simpleton, milady. "

─「エウルア」─ " simpleton, so it's a term to call a fool, then ? why such terms, however ? i have seen it's used upon someone who's rather intelligent and capable on occasions. is there any other implication behind it ? "

[willnotdothefandango-a]

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in?

The Salty AF Munday Meme || It’s always salty Kaerene hours

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you’re currently rping in?

I have a lot of unkind words so I’m gonna be putting them under a read more.

To put it quite simply: This place is a cesspool.

Now I know what you’re gonna say. ‘If you hate it here so much, why are you here’? Because I love my muses. I love the work I put into them. I love the relationships I have formed both ICly and OOCly with the few friends I have managed to make in this hellhole. I managed to meet one of my best friends in this place (stares pointedly at u), I couldn’t just up and leave after all the love and work we’ve put into the stories we’ve written.

But I can’t tell you how many times I have considered just up and leaving. How many times I have just considered just deleting my blogs because there is so much drama in this damn place. There are so many people determined to bring others down for fun or to stroke their own ego. There is so much pettiness, so much meanness that doesn’t need to happen, and just. So much disgusting shipping wank that makes me physically ill.

But you know what upsets me so fucking deeply, probably the most out of all of this?

There’s so many people who don’t respect or understand the idea of stealing people’s work.

It’s happened. So many times to me in the past in other fandoms, and then I find that this fandom’s highkey the worst of all that I’ve ever had to go through. I have had headcanons stolen. I have had ship dynamics directly ripped off. I have had my portrayal not even subtly copied, as well as the unique quirks and traits I give my muses to make the spin personal--And no one’s ever sorry for it.

In fact, sometimes I even get blamed for it. And no--I’m not trying to make this a ‘woe is me’ situation, I don’t feel bad for myself. I’m just tired. I’m just really, really tired of constantly being treated like this under the premise of “It’s not plagiarizing/I didn’t mean to plagiarize I just admire your writing”--I don’t care? Admiration doesn’t mean you get to rip off my hard work and the love I put into my portrayals, on purpose or not. 

Do you know how much I just don’t want to log onto some of these blogs anymore, just because it hurts to have this constantly happen? And then have shit thrown in my face for being upset and not wanting to talk afterwards, or wondering why I won’t explain? Most of the people here are my age if not older, there are some things you are more than old enough to understand. I have lately just been frustrated to the point where I just.

I’m this close to giving up. I’m really, genuinely this close to leaving. I don’t deserve this. I don’t like to use that word, but I really. Really. Don’t. Deserve. This. Crap. I ended up just curling into a ball last night after a thing happened, hugging my plush because I just. I couldn’t? Deal with this shit anymore? I physically just cannot anymore? I put it across all my rules and my posts that my works are not up for grabs, they are not to be used or reblogged--And yet the vast majority of this fandom doesn’t respect that? There’s not really much I can do when people won’t listen whether it’s slapped on a page or I’m saying it ‘till I’m blue in the face.

I’m so tired.

TL;DR: I hate this fandom and its tendency to steal my work because hey, fuck how Kaerene feels right? It’s not like she’s a real person on the other side of the screen with actual feelings that can be hurt. She always just shrugs it off, so it’s cool if I just make her day worse.

@bellbaron

[caelumsaltator]

@bellbaron​ replied:

places a blue wig on top of her head

Confused Lumine noises????

[ghostlyanon]

13. Favorite enemy? 14. Least favorite enemy?

ge.nshin impac.t ask game ( open ) | @bellbaron

13. I really like the hilichurls even though I know of their tragic plot-heavy reason to exist and amongst them I have a few favorites. One of them is the Electro Hilichurl. I think they got the coolest design, pattern, and color palette-wise.

14. I've only fought it was, but it was scary enough to make me not want to fight one ever again. Ruin seeker, searcher, keeper, I don't even remember, I just know it's an Automaton and it should never have been created.

gosh it's so scary

[wackywoohooborschtman]

milord, how can i be a chad like you

Toning down the stalking would be a good first step, probably.

@bellbaron

[rcguna-archived]

@bellbaron​ replied:  r u n

“Run? Where? This was a letter! And I can’t just leave my farm behind!”

[pastballads]

" Im not thirsty, I swear. "

  "You sure about that, dude? You look real on edge and you're sweating up a storm like you just ran a marathon. Plus you seem extra thirsty in the other way. Might as well chill with one of those, right? Better make it the one you can actually sip."