#benjamin lopez

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Benjamin Kayser comforting Camille Lopez

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MY LAST MIX FOR BOOTYCALL RECORDS RADIO SHOW ON RINSE FM, 28/06/14 Hope you'll enjoy it !!

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Live recording of my Benjamin Lopez set for the DICE HOUSE@NOUVEAU CASINO - PARIS - 7 FEV 14.... I hope you'll enjoy it as much as I enjoyed this gig !! Here is the FB event : https://www.facebook.com/events/269475806548514/ And Here is the next one DICE HOUSE@NOUVEAU CASINO - 7 MARCH 14. COME OVER !!! https://www.facebook.com/events/1398561680405647/ Thx to Steph for recording.

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Well I came home Like a stone And I fell Heavy into your arms These days of dust, Wish we would've known, Will blow away with this new sun But I'll kneel down, wait for now I'll kneel down, know my ground I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you So bring my step And relent, you forgave and I wont forget Know what we've seen And him with less knowing some way to shake the excess I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you Now I'll be bold, as well as strong And use my head, along side my heart So tame my flesh and fix my eyes a tethered mind freed from the lies But I'll kneel down, wait for now I'll kneel down, know my ground Raise my hands Paint my spirit gold Bow my head, feel my heart slow I will wait, I wait wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you And I will wait, I will wait for you

i love this band soo much. most songs remind me of himm.

i need to follow blogs that post pictures of Mumford & Sons <3

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I miss everyone who has left my life.

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I just want to get out of here

Sometimes, I just want to leave this place... I want to leave this town. Go some where far far away... & I'm not talking about two/three towns away from here, I mean states away.. I want to live with my sister in Texas. New environment, New faces; far from you. I know It's dumb, but I feel like if I'm with my sister, states away, I can get on with my life... Even if I think of you, think of wanting to be with you, those ideas are immediately shot down since I'm so far away. It's just getting too hard to stay here at times... Everywhere I go~ It's everywhere I've been with you. There's memories everywhere I fuckin go. I just need to get away.. I just want to get lost.. leave this place & leave the memories behind. I'm just so frustrated.! What the hell have you've done with me? I can see those words you spoke to me are the same words you spoke to the girls after me. You played me. You made me believe you were someone different.. and I cant help but have this emptiness inside.. as if my heart has sunk to the bottom of my stomach. I hope you realized you broke my heart, again. You've sunken my heart into this bottomless pit.

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The day I start to let you go

The day, the moment, the second~ I start to let you go is the time I will be free. Free from being tied to the past. Freed from you. That day I start to let you go, will be the day I can move on. Start a new beginning. Maybe with someone else. Maybe not. Either way, I would be freed from everything you kept me from~ moving on. One day, probably not anyyy time soon~ probably at a far distance in time, when we are both old & have kids, you'll realize you had a hold on me for sooo long. That I would of done anything for you. That I ruined my other relationships for yoou. Thinking you are the one. Hah,. It's funny cause I remember the nights we'd stay up together, talking endlessly on the phone- foolishly in looove~ and you asked me, "how long would it take yoou to move on?" And me, stupidly answered, "probably three months or so... Idk, I love you so it might be awhile." Then you tell me, with such high hopes in our relationship (in such a early stage), "maybe we won't break up. My mom & dad were high school sweethearts & we can end up like them" I was doubtful.. only cause I've never had a working- stable relationship my whole life. I told you I dont think that would happen,, that only happens in fairytales. But you seemed soo sure, and the more you brought it up, the more you made me believe it... That this could happen, we could be happy & stupidly in love~ foreverr. You made me so stupid for you. You made me ignore my realistic side and start believing everything that came out your mouth. Oh man, you had me. You had me so good~ all wrapped around your finger. Only did I know, you had a greater hold on me on the long run. September 19. Do you remember that day? That's the day we will be two years-seperated. You know, you'd think each day that comes by would make it easier for me to let you go.. and maybe it kiinda is, getting use to you not being here- but trust me.. There's thosee days where it seems like the pain- the emptiness- is consuming me. It hurts and I feel helpless and stupid, cause you're not thinking of me.. I just know it. I just look at myself in the mirror; I feel dead at times. But I pull through. Put a smile on my face and try to carry on...yeah, it is easier some days then others. But there never is a day I don't think of you... And seriously, that sounds really exaggerated but It's true. I don't think I can think of a day you didn't come in my head. I mean, there's days- weeks I don't talk about you, but it doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you. But you see... The day I'm finally released from whatever hold you have on me, all of that... all that I just wrote down right now... All the tears I have shed.. all of that- it will go away.. and I will be free... And I will be truely happy again.. and if I ever see you, down the road, when we are older & have kids, I'll smile at you, looking back at the good days we had and then I'll go on with my day with no feelings attached but happiness for what we use to have.