Benjamin Mis’Aki’ Ryan
Age: 28
brazilian-spanish / american-japanese
gay
°get’s physically sick when he get’s no pastry’s °coffein addicted °likes dark and lonesome places °always drags his backpack and his red earphones along with him when he’s out to stroll °most of the time listens to music over his headphones to a- shut out the world noises around him and b- to slow down his thoughts by focusing on beats and rhythms and with that trying to give them a tact °has in general a tick with his backpack, he pretty much hoards everything he see’s, can grab and thinks it might come in handy at some point in it like a hamster. From loose strings, to bandage’s, to his weedbox, to glowsticks and not to forget the box of emergency chocolate cookies in case he’s outside and get’s dizzy. If you ask him about it, he’s gonna tell you that it calms him to be prepared. If you ask him for what he wants to be prepared, he’ll tell you for everything possible but to tell you the truth, he’s having huge issues with the fear of loosing control °has quiet a habbit of climbing onto shit even tho he often found himself barely to get down again. He feels safer to have that particularly distance to things and the feeling of a somewhat overview and clearness it gives him when he gazes down on landscapes °struggles with PTSD since early childhood due to several events beginning when he was around 5 years old °pretty much started to slowly loose it completely after the sudden death of his best friend and brother in mind in a random assault °can have quiet the temper when he’s overwhelmed °it often scares him how aware he is about his issues and yet feels like not being able to change much about it
