#benji whines

[holydean]

guess who got MARRIED

[holydean]

just feels like i've done absolutely everything i could to cope and im still in the same place. still the same person, still zero achievements, zero accomplishments. feels like i am wasting away.

i have tried for so many years to be optimistic, but im circling the drain now. in the end of it all i come back to the haunting realization that maybe none of this ever gets any better.

[holydean]

my fiancé and i made a prototype for our reception centerpieces and i cant stop looking at the pictures. i'm so excited and it really sets in that in less than 2 months we're getting married

[holydean]

got engaged today to the sweetest boy i know ❤

[holydean]

can't believe i didnt post about it here, but my boyfriend and i finally met in person after ten months of dating international long distance. he went back to canada about a week ago and it feels like half of me went with him 💔

[holydean]

after ten months of dating and not being able to meet in person because of closed international borders, my boyfriend is coming to see me in january!! i can't even process my excitement

[holydean]

long distance love is taking an intermission from your 30 hour long video call so he can call his parents and you can take a shower and clean your room and then reconvene to spend the rest of the night watching trash reality television together and i love every second of it

[holydean]

all i ever do anymore is pop in here to be sappy, but, holy shit. it's been five months since i started dating the love of my life and it's like everything in my life makes sense now.

but on another note, if you find yourself in circumstances wherein you live with your partner or are still able to see them or be with them in lockdown, please, please cherish that shit. don't let it go.