anyone who ever been in a destructive relationship (most of girls will understand me), devides their life "before" and "after" that destructive relationship. months of tears, nervous breakdowns, but at the same time the pure happiness are included into that. when you see his eyes or melt in his hug you completely forget all his lies, curse, insults, stupid features of his character, everything that irritates in him, all those things dissappear from your memory when you listen to his stories or see him smiling. when he holds your hand, nothing else matters in this world...
but there is always a crisis point that makes whole your essense kill him in your mind, heart and in soul. that point, after it had happened, you make your love get out of you, build a cocoon only for yourself, close all the doors and windows, slits and keep telling to yourself like a psycho "forget him, forget him, he is dead". you make an enormous effort to kill him in yourself, you try everyday, every hour, every minute, you try to forget and not to think about him anymore...
