My friends and I were on the bus to school and one of them was telling us about her younger cousin and her experience at a teenage disco. She said her cousin had walked through the doors and the first thing she seen was two girls kissing. If I’m honest, my heart kind of filled with joy. I thought thank God, the world is finally changing and people of LGBT community are being accepted into the world! It’s such a step forward. However my friends reaction was, wow! Imagine at that age? Jesus. And no it wasn’t because it was two young teenagers kissing because in Ireland, there’s a lot more things going on than kissing at teenage discos. It was because it was two young girls kissing. People of the same sex and imagine they know already that they’re gay? How can they know? So I explained to them how I felt about the situation, how I was ecstatic that now members of the LGBT community could experience teenage discos just like how the majority of us did, getting to kiss the person you like. Or even just getting to kiss a stranger who asked you to (‘cause that’s how we roll in Ireland) And how just like they knew they liked guys from a young age, those people knew they liked girls. Or maybe not, maybe it’s a recent discovery, but regardless of that, it’s not a phase and most definitely shouldn’t be disregarded as one because of their age. Their response was that they weren’t used to it all, that is was alien to them. And I thought nothing other than well… Time to fucking get used to it. I don’t have the patience for people being uncomfortable with love and attraction, I’ve gone to school with these people from the age of four and throughout our years in school we’ve had lessons that told us being gay is okay and it’s normal and we must accept everyone and they’re telling me they’re not used to it? Bull. We’ve been subject to differently sexualities for a long time now. I’ve wanted to come out as bisexual for a while now, part of what stopped me was not knowing if I was really bi or not and to be honest, I’m still slightly unsure of it all but part of it was because I know I will be making some of my female friends uncomfortable. I know they’re going to feel I’m attracted to them and I’m looking at their bodies or I’m sexualising them. When in reality, I never could, not that they’re not lovely people but they’re my friends and I could never see them that way. Just the way I have guy friends who I could never like that way. The only person I’ve told is my boyfriend and he was brilliant, he made it seem like we were just talking about any other thing. And I hope that someday I’ll be able to have that same conversation with my female friends, but for now I’ll stay quiet, I only have a few months left in school and I don’t want those few months to be awkward. And also, I’m still not completely solid on all of it, I’d like to be comfortable with it and understand it all more before I go preaching it. Except for on here of course ;) Sorry for the long rant, needed to get some things out and i thought what better place than tumblr ^-^ send me asks if you have any questions although it’s probably too long for anyone to read, lel. Tenk you and goodnight. (It’s 11am but wutever)
