Let you break my heart again
Being in love is a dangerous game
Trying to be mature about love is just plain comical
Cuz if you need time, you don’t say it out loud and instead just remain silent
Boy, that speaks higher than a preacher on Sunday
And I want to blink at the speed of light, for my eyes to not dare to drop a tear
And take deep breath and repeat to myself “don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry”
Cuz if I cry, it will just give you more reasons to want some space
More reasons to think this is not what you signed up for
How can I keep my mouth shut and at the same time tell you that this is breaking me
I want to beg in my knees if needed “please talk to me, look at me, notice me”
For I live only when you deign to recognize my existence, and not one minute more
I’m a puppet waiting for you to pull the strings and bring me to life again
But then I remain quiet
I remain silent
I keep my eyes open while I cry
Force my hands to erase that text before being sent
And wait
Write a little
Close my eyes
Wait some more
You’ll reach out, I know
Soon
I know
