The door burst open and there he was, the boy who took my breath away—Jin.
Although he didn't look like the Jin I had last seen in his room.
His beautiful hair, the one I loved to run my fingers through, especially in intimacy (he, of course, would complain about it but he never pushed me away; deep down, he liked it), was somewhat messy.
His clothes were wrinkled (much more than usual) and besides, I could see small dark circles under his eyes that made it evident he had slept little.
However, the worst part were his eyes. Jin, even if he didn't admit his own feelings or share what he was thinking... His eyes always spoke for him, and right now it was no different.
Because the moment he saw me awake, something changed in his expression. It was barely a second. A tiny crack in that mask he always wore.
"—You're a problem." I stared at him.
"—What?" He approached the bed.
"—A huge problem." My throat tightened.
"—I'm sorry." I let out regretfully.
"—No."
"—Jin..."
"—Don't tell me you're sorry." His voice wasn't loud; that made it even worse.
"—A week."
I lowered my gaze.
"—I didn't know that..."
"—I know." He fell silent after saying that.
Then he looked at my wounds, one by one, as if he needed to check that I was still there.
"—You could have died." I didn't respond."—But you didn't."
His gaze met mine again. There was a silence and for the first time I could see him and know what he was thinking. He wasn't angry; he was scared.
But Jin wasn't the type of person who admitted something like that. So he just sighed.
"—You're really a true problem." I smiled weakly.
"—You've told me that several times already."
"—And you still are."
"—I'm sorry."
"—Stop apologizing."
"—Then, what do I do?" Jin stared at me for a few seconds, said nothing, then moved a little closer to where I was."—Nothing."
"—Nothing?" He sat down next to the bed and nodded. His hand carefully rested on mine.
"—Just stay here and rest." I felt my eyes get wet.
"—Jin..."
"—What?"
"— I've been thinking about you a lot." His expression changed. "—During the whole mission." He looked down at our hands.
"—I thought about you too." He said it so softly I almost didn't hear it.
I smiled like an idiot."—Were you worried?"
"—No." I let out a small laugh at his denial—he lies terribly, I have him figured out.
"—Liar."
"—I'm not lying."
"—You have horrible dark circles, you know that?." He shot me a withering look.
"—Shut up."I laughed. Then Jin sighed, stood up, and leaned towards me.
"—Come here."
"—What? I'm injured, can't you see?."
"—I know." Very carefully, he put an arm around me and pulled me close to his chest. I stayed completely still. His hug was firm, but careful, as if he was afraid of hurting me.I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes.
"—I love you—" I murmured. I felt his hand stop for a moment.
"—I know."
"—How romantic you are."
"—I'm not finished." I lifted my head and looked into his eyes.
"—I love you." My heart skipped a beat.
"—Could you repeat that? I want to record it so I can listen to it over and over for all eternity" I say, mustering strength to look for my phone.
"—No, stay still."
"—Jin." I say with a pout, making puppy eyes.
"—Don't push it."I smiled.
"—I love you." I say more lovingly, and he shook his head.
"—You're insufferable."
"—And you love me, you brought it on yourself."
"—Unfortunately."
And before I could keep bothering him, he leaned in and kissed me. It was a soft, warm kiss, and for my taste, too short—air was overrated.
When he pulled back, our foreheads rested together.
"—Don't disappear for a week again."
"—I'll try not to, though I'm not promising anything."
"—Don't even try it."I smile and stick my tongue out at him.
"—Yes, sir."
He gave me another kiss. And, honestly... I could live with being a problem. Because I knew that, for Jin, I was exactly that—His problem. And he was mine. Besides, I can't imagine being anywhere other than in his arms.
"—By the way." Tohma's voice made me lift my head when Jin left the room.
"—What?" Tohma was leaning against the doorframe, he looked towards where Jin had just disappeared and then looked at me with a mocking smile.
"—You shouldn't tell him." I frowned.
"—Tell him what?" He sighed.
"—During this whole week he was insufferable."
"—Insufferable? I don't think that's unusual."
"—More than usual." I sat up a little to hear him better.
"—What did he do?"
"—He kept coming to ask for updates on the Obscuary mission.
"My expression changed.
"—Every day?"
"—Several times a day." I felt a lump in my throat.
"—But... He never said he was worried." I say, looking down.
"—Of course he didn't, but we all knew. If he wasn't worried, he wouldn't have been about to send a helicopter to get you."
I fell silent and understood something—that maybe our argument had been stupid and that we were both too stubborn. But there was something I knew with absolute certainty: I loved him and he loved me.
Even if he had a horrible way of showing it. But I would always return to his arms, and he would always be waiting for me and be willing to destroy anyone who prevented that.
"—In the end, it was true that you were capable of melting his heart of ice." Says Tohma, entering his room a few hours later.
AHAHAHAHAJ HIIIIII!! I finally figured out what I was doing wrong and why it wouldn't let me upload the whole thing... Next time I'll post it all in one go 😭
Also, I want to apologize if my English sounds a little mechanical sometimes 😭 I write everything in Spanish first AHAHAHAHA and then translate it literally, so... I'm sorry 😭🩷
Desperately looking for a very specific typa fic that I can't write myself due to work and parental duties.
I NEED Marcel & Hope to have a brother sister relationship and I also need for the hollow to not exist! I need some family with a happy ending! I need Klaus' redemption, I need him to be a good dad! I also need Elijah and Haley to work things out and stay together! Also PLEASE LET REBEKAH AND MARCEL BE HAPPY TOGETHER OMG!
(It would also be nice if Cammie was back, but I don't want to be too greedy y'know...)
summary : with the lyrics of christina perri's "you are my sunshine" we learn about jaafar and ophelia jackson's miscarriage that they never publically posted when it originally happened until it's announced their pregnant with their fourth child.
warnings : mention of miscarriage, rainbow baby announcement, crying, sadness that turns into happiness, song lyrics (does christina perri also need a warning?)
a/n : even though the last fic i posted wasn't a rewritten fic, i'm not surprised that this is a rewritten fic as these days for some reason its hard for me to get inspiration for fics as often as i used to. hopefully i get that inspiration back as recycling fics is lowkey bothering me lol. also, if it isn't already obvious, maddie does not exist in this fic but her photos will be used as the face claim for ophelia.
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey!
ophelia jackson, wife of jaafar jackson, son of jermaine jackson and nephew of michael jackson, had just been given the best news that she could have ever found out. she was pregnant with their first child. she couldn't believe that finally she was going to become a mom and her husband, jaafar, was going to become a dad.
as soon as the positive result came back, ophelia found herself frantically putting together a box of baby related things to surprise jaafar with to let him know of the amazing news that she had found out only moments ago. just as she was finishing her set up for the surprise, she quickly set up her phone so she could film her husband's reaction when the front door opened and her husband's soothing voice reverberated throughout the house. staring at the camera with a wide-eyed look of excitement and slight fear, she waited for her husband to come into the kitchen. the perfectly crafted box placed aesthetically for him to open.
"hey mama, i'm home!" jaafar called out as ophelia smiles at the camera after her surprise of his voice made her jump as she waits for him to come into the kitchen
"hey honey, i'm in the kitchen!" ophelia calls out as jaafar giggles as he puts his stuff down in the entryway of the house, minus his phone and walks into the kitchen to see his wife
"hey mama!" jaafar mumbles as he swoops in, not even noticing the fact that his wife was filming the both of them as he pulls her in for a hug as she chuckles
they talk for a few minutes more in whispers without jaafar even realising the present on the counter right in front of him nor his wife's iphone that was filming them until ophelia nudges him and forces him to notice the present.
"oh, honey, i also got you a little present," ophelia forces her husband to notice the present as he chuckles, placing his phone in his back jean pocket as he then looked down at the counter - finally noticing the white box in front of him
"mama, why did you do that? it's not christmas or my birthday or anything, why did you get a present for me? shoot, please don't tell me i missed an anniversary!" jaafar panics as he tries to remember if he had missed any anniversaries or anything as he loosened the pretty bow and opened the lid of the box
but, in saying that though, jaafar was very sceptical in opening the box lid which made ophelia laugh but also riddled her with anxiety that maybe, he wasn't exactly ready for a baby and to become a father. or that he even wanted to become a dad. i mean, they were still pretty young, the both of them in their mid-late twenties. and, right now, jaafar was still filming for the biopic about his famous uncle, michael jackson. so, was this the right time to be surprising him with a pregnancy test and the news that they're about to become parents? however, all that fear and anxiety went away the moment jaafar just collapsed into ophelia's arms, immediately starting to cry. she knew it was happy tears due to the way she watched her husband's face contort before he hid it in her shoulder.
"mama, are you serious?" jaafar whispered, his voice failing him as it cracked as the couple hugged, jaafar was not able to speak any louder as ophelia giggled and nodded her head
"i'm totally serious babe, i'm pregnant!" ophelia spoke softly and lovingly with excitement as jaafar just stayed silent as he hugged his wife tighter as she giggled
"how far along? does it say on the...on the thing?" jaafar mumbled to himself, still not trusting his voice being any louder as he grabbed the clearblue pregnancy test to see how long his wife was in her pregnancy when he smiled - she was around five weeks along
"you happy, baby?" ophelia mumbled as she giggled, jaafar nodding his head as he wiped his tears away as he chuckled softly
"you're five weeks along, i'm more than happy mama! we're gonna be parents! we're going to have a little family of three!" jaafar spoke softly as he smiled the brightest he had ever smiled since their wedding day
"i know jaffy, it's crazy!" ophelia giggled as jaafar then grabbed his phone to take a photo before ophelia stopped him
"what are ou doing, baby?" ophelia giggled as she sat herself up on the kitchen counter next to the box that was used for the announcement
"i want to post it to instagram... and tell the rest of the family..." he trailed off like a kid as ophelia giggled as she had now stopped filming on her phone
"...how about we just keep it between us, i'm already five weeks which means i'm not that far away from being twelve weeks which is when it's recommended to tell people since that's when concerns for pregnancy loss drop around this time. we only have to wait six more weeks until we can tell people, do you think you can wait for that long?" ophelia explained, as jaafar placed his phone down and nodded his head, wrapping his arms around his wife and now their little baby
"that's absolutely fine with me babe! i can definitely wait six more weeks before telling people! but, holy crap mama! you're actually pregnant with an actual human being just chilling in you right now! we made that!" jaafar started to rail off as ophelia laughed at her husband as she nodded her head
" i know babe! we've actually made a full-on human that's literally growing inside of me right as we speak! just a little crazy but, i'm so excited!" ophelia spoke in between bouts of laughter as jaafar shook his head, a big smile on his face as he hugged his wife again
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six weeks had passed when the jackson's had been given the all-clear with telling people about their pregnancy. and right now, thankfully, the producers of the michael biopic had graciously given the cast and crew some time off from filming. this meant that they were all spread out around the states which made it difficult to tell those guys in person. until ophelia remembered the group chat they had with each other and decided to tell them that way. especially since jaafar's cousins, prince & bigi as well as some of his uncles and aunty who were part of the movie were also in that group chat so it made sense to use that group chat for those guys. the rest of the jackson family getting told a different time.
michael biopic cast & crew
jaafar, prince, bigi, juliano, coleman, nia, miles, la toya, marlon, jermaine, jackie, katherine, graham, antoine and ophelia
jaafar
prince, bigi, jackie, graham and 11 others have reacted to this photo
prince
wait hold up!
bigi
oh my gosh!! congratulations you two!!
jackie
you can't just do that and leave the chat!!! jaafar, ophelia's actually pregnant?!
juliano
duuuuuuuuuuuudddddeeee ain't no way! congratulations! that's amazing news!
miles
wait, phee, you've been pregnant how long?! when the fuck did this happen?!
la toya
jaafar! phee! you guys i'm crying! congratulations i'm so happy for you!
ophelia
awe, thank you, guys! and miles, to answer your question, i've been pregnant for twelve weeks! when i did the test, i was five weeks pregnant and basically, jaafar wanted to tell everyone, and post it on social media but, i wanted to wait until now basically!
miles
omg, this is insane! so, wait, you were pregnant when we all last saw each other on set, basically? is that what you're saying?!
jackie
holy crap ophelia! you're really pregnant!
miles
jesus christ girl! you and jaafar are actually gonna be parents!
ophelia
yeah, that is exactly what i'm saying miles, and i didn't even know! because as mentioned before, when i took the test, it said i was over two weeks pregnant and then when i went to my doctor and told her, she basically confirmed that i was five weeks after she had connected the dots to everything i had told her previously
prince
this has got to be an april fool's joke right?! like, this ain't no way at all that jaafar has knocked his wife up!
miles
prince! that's your cousin and cousin-in-law, that is inappropriate! i am so sorry ophelia!
ophelia
sorry little prince, it isn't an april fool's joke because one, it's not april and two, jaafar has knocked his wife up and he did a pretty damn good job of it too!
ophelia
haha, miles, it's all good, but i have to admit, reading you tell off the son of michael jackson over text is quite funny
jermaine
and this is why ophelia is my favourite daughter-in-law! i'm sorry! and, congratulations darling!
marlon
hear hear jermaine! i think we all agree!
jackie
oh, absolutely jermaine! i agree also!
miles
as do i!
bigi
oh yeah, favourite cousin-in-law ever!
jaafar
and, to end this off, i too agree in saying that ophelia is my favourite jackson daughter-in-law!
prince
okay yep, i'm sorry! i was wrong, you guys are right!
katherine
huge congratulations ophelia and jaafar but, now that you are twelve weeks pregnant, and you're telling us, will you be announcing it to social media or do you think you'll wait a little longer?
ophelia
umm, funny thing, jaafar and i just had this conversation and, since we honestly had no itch to tell our followers but had the itch to tell you guys and the rest of our families first, i think he and i will wait a little bit longer before telling everyone on social media!
graham
big congratulations to you two and yeah, that's absolutely fair! well, if you and jaafar can wait then, so can everyone else i mean, what they don't know won't hurt them!
everyone sent heart.
nia
smart choice phee! but, omg, i'm still trying to believe that you're actually preggers! you're growing an actual human inside of you, right now!
ophelia
i know nia! jaafar was constantly saying the same thing which would constantly make me laugh because he was right! i'm literally growing a whole ass human inside of me!
however, not even a full two weeks after this group chat conversation, as everyone was brought together in excitement for the jackson's and their exciting pregnancy news regarding the next generation of the jackson family, ophelia's biggest and worst nightmare came true - miscarrying their baby.
you'll never know dear, how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away.
only days before ophelia miscarried their baby, was she singing a sweet, famous lullaby to her belly that only sported a little rounded bump. as she sang the words of christina perri's cover version of "you are my sunshine". she was sitting on the couch, her feet resting underneath her bum as she sang whilst her hands rested on her bare pregnant tummy. with her husband home from work, jaafar smiled as he sat down next to his wife, his head resting on her shoulder as he was the third and fourth hands to join in the rubbing/resting on the pregnant belly.
"you'll never know how dear, how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away," ophelia sang softly to the little baby that was peacefully resting in her belly as jaafar smiled lovingly
"i wonder if baby jackson will be a boy or a girl," jaafar spoke softly, as not to disturb the gorgeous serenity that was his wife's singing voice and what it brought to the baby as she smiled
"as long as baby jackson is healthy and i'm healthy, that's all that matters baby," ophelia whispered back as jaafar nodded his head, more than satisfied with his wife's answer
the happy couple and their baby just rested against the couch for the rest of the night as they watched movies on netflix before the night drifted away from them and it was suddenly coming close to 11 pm - time for the jackson's to go to sleep.
however, for some off reason, ophelia couldn't seem to get herself to fall asleep comfortably because she was suddenly starting to feel some pain which, wasn't just worrying her but also jaafar. thinking she could get through the pain, ophelia just tried to slowly move through it like she usually would when she'd cramp up. however, this time, a searing pain went through her whole body which led to the loudest scream to fall from her mouth. this was when ophelia and jaafar knew that this wasn't normal and that they needed to get to the hospital quickly.
jaafar jackson always thought of himself as someone who was quite levelheaded and calm in stressful situations but, after hearing his wife scream louder than ever before, it forced him to rethink that opinion about him staying levelheaded and calm. he did not feel levelheaded or calm at all, he felt absolutely blindsided and the opposite of calm. but, he knew he had to be calm because his wife couldn't be, calming himself down as best as he could, he picked ophelia up, mindful of the stabbing pain she was in and her pregnant belly that had now reduced his normally composed wife to tears.
quickly, via voice control, sending a text to both the michael biopic group chat and the jackson family group chat, letting them know. jaafar then messaged his dad separately because he knew that ophelia's family were too far away, she'd still want her second fatherly figure with her if her actual father couldn't be and it was also because jaafar knew he'd need his dad. not just for his wife's need but also for his own and so his dad could remind him that he was also allowed to get emotional. knowing himself well, jaafar knew he wouldn't allow himself to become upset whilst his wife is the one physically suffering so he texted his dad so he could also provide support for his son as well as his daughter-in-law.
thankful for their michael biopic family and their actual family, ophelia and jaafar got into their car, on their way to the hospital at 11:30 pm. then, fifteen minutes later, the jackson's had been given the heartbreaking news that, in fact, they had miscarried baby jackson at just over twelve weeks.
the other night dear, as i lay sleeping, i dreamed i held you in my arms.
ophelia couldn't dare to fall asleep knowing now that she had lost her baby. she couldn't even think about sleep anymore now that all she'd dream about is holding her newborn baby with jaafar next to her as they both cried tears of joy, relief and content for their new child. but, that was no longer the dream that they were going to be getting in real life in nine months. in nine months, the husband and wife would probably still be crying over this loss when it came to the guessed due date. jaafar was broken by the fact that ophelia wasn't sleeping. it broke his heart every night that whilst she laid in bed beside him, not able to fall asleep, he could fall asleep.
it honestly made him feel like he wasn't grieving properly or that he had stopped grieving entirely or that he wasn't upset at all. it made him feel like he was being an awful husband for not staying awake with her whilst her brain ran wild whilst he slept like it didn't bother him. but, it did bother him. it bothered jaafar so much more than he allowed people to know, including ophelia.
every time jaafar closed his eyes, all he saw was the innocent little baby that was going to be his and ophelia's first child, their first love. but, by the time he woke up, the image would be gone in the blink of an eye so when he closed his eyes again, the image would have changed to the moment in the hospital where the doctor confirmed the dreadful news they had miscarried their first baby. news that was going to forever haunt the husband wife for the rest of their lives.
unfortunately, a week after ophelia had miscarried, the cast of michael was due back to set for the filming of the movie. whilst graham and antoine and the rest of the cast & crew were more than welcome to hold off for another few weeks due to the bereavement of jaafar and ophelia's child, jaafar wasn't having any of it. the way he grieved was by bottling it all up because in his mind, if he ignored it and just pretended it didn't happen, it would just go away and life would return back to normal again.
as much as ophelia was also originally agreeing with graham and antoine's decision to also push back filming for jaafar to have bereavement leave, it became obvious with the conversations she and jaafar were having that accepting that leave wasn't an option. ophelia realised that her husband was shutting down emotionally and mentally and was trying to convince everyone he wasn't. so, instead of fighting and forcing her husband to confront his feelings straight away, she'd play along with the way he was coping with his grief and agreed with him that it would be best for him to go back to work and to not accept their offer of bereavement leave.
whilst jaafar went back to work, although she made it seem like to her husband that she did agree with his decision, she really didn't agree and she took her own work's offer of bereavement leave. she had never been so worried about her husband until this loss of their baby. whilst she had seen jaafar come home with bloodied feet and aching body from how hard he had been rehearsing to perfect the eccentricities of his late uncle, she had never experienced him grieving. at least, not the grieving of his unborn baby as they were childhood best friends and she remembered the way her husband grieved his uncle but because he was so young, it was so much more different then it was now. at the age he was and with the proper mental capacity to understand what a loss like this meant especially because whilst the loss of his uncle is devastating, this loss was different in the fact it was his own child, it frightened ophelia to think about how her husband was coping on set.
and ophelia's deep worry about her husband going back to work this early was warranted when she received a worrying text from her cousin-in-law prince as well as a frantic call from juliano, the actor who played young michael. prince's text explained how one minute jaafar was fine and then the next he had been found leaning against a prop door crying into his knees holding something. the phone call ophelia received from juliano was of a similar nature however, it seemed as though juliano knew a little more than prince did and was able to tell her what jaafar was holding against his knees as he cried. as soon as juliano told her what her husband was holding, that's what got her sprinting off the couch and racing to her car so she could be there for her husband.
it was clear that this breakdown hadn't just come out of nowhere, it was clear that this had been bubbling inside of jaafar probably since the day of the miscarriage. the very moment he heard his wife scream, jaafar pushed every possible emotion he was going to feel the moment they stepped foot in that hospital and hadn't let that emotion be felt since. even when he contacted his dad to make sure he didn't do that, it still happened and now ophelia was racing all the way down to the movie set to comfort her husband the way he had been comforting her this entire time.
finally, ophelia had made it to the movie set and was relieved to see that prince, juliano and jermaine were already waiting for her at the gates. jumping out of her car, she raced over, prince and jermaine reaching her whilst juliano reached her minutes after.
"...where is he?" was all ophelia said before juliano took charge, grabbing ophelia's hand and leading her to where juliano had found jaafar crying against the prop door
as soon as ophelia saw her husband, still crying against the prop door, she felt her heart break as juliano slowly removed his hand from hers, "i really am sorry, ophelia. you guys didn't deserve that, you would have been the most perfect parents, i know it..." he trails off as he gives ophelia a hug before running back over to prince and jermaine who were watching from a distance
"...aw, juliano, thank you darling boy! we're also sorry it happened, we would have been amazing parents but, there's always next time. thank you for taking me to jaafar, i promise he'll be okay!" ophelia smiles softly after pulling out of the hug as juliano nodded his head as he ran off
now this was going to be the worst part as ophelia walked closer and closer to her husband, sliding down the door next to him as he doesn't react, "...you alright, j?" she whispered softly, her tone of voice genuinely concerned, not in a 'i told you so' tone
to no avail though, her husband didn't give her a response even though they were sat right next to each other, jaafar couldn't bring himself to give his wife an answer. he just continued to cry as ophelia looked down at what it was he was holding, remembering what juliano had told her what it was. when she had farewelled her husband to work in the morning, she couldn't recall seeing him slip into what would have been the nursey which they had closed off where they had all the pregnancy tests, the shoes, the clothes and the singular ultrasound they had gotten of their little baby. that was what juliano had told her that he saw jaafar holding as he slid down the door as he cried.
ophelia wasn't so sure what broke her heart more, the fact he had finally broken down after so long of holding it back or that it had happened at work where she couldn't be there for her husband. both of them broke her heart but, it didn't matter when her husband wept right in front of her after not even showing a singular crack in his composed facade until now.
"how long have you been grieving all on our own?" although it wasn't a easy question, ophelia thought it would be a question he'd respond to as she stayed sitting next to him silently
"only today. i thought i had been hiding it so well and if i just kept on ignoring it, it would just go away and i'd forget it even happened. if i just threw myself back into work, the pain of my uncle's precise dance moves would hurt more and outweigh the overwhelming pain in my chest that was the loss of our baby..." jaafar whispered, his voice clearly destroyed from how much and how loud he had been crying as ophelia sighed sadly
"...jaafar, you never hid it well at all. i knew from the moment i felt that pain that you were already grieving the loss of our baby and it hadn't even happened yet. so when it was later confirmed, i knew you would be destroyed. i didn't want you to go back to work this quick but because i wanted to avoid fighting with you, i just went along with you not wanting to take that leave. i knew you weren't okay but i didn't want to push you away by forcing you to stay home. but, maybe i should have because the loss of a baby isn't just something that can go away or be ignored. our life won't be the same after this nor will our relationship...but, i love you so much, jaafar, and i just wished you felt more comfortable within yourself to show your grief because i could have made that overwhelming pain lighter like you made mine lighter. of course it isn't going to fix the grief of our unborn baby straight away but it's the beginning of our new life without our baby. please don't run away from your grief because it'll consume you, let it run alongside you and it'll feel easier to deal with, okay?" ophelia begged, her hand reaching out towards her husbands in the hope that he'd take it
ophelia's heart raced as she waited for her husband's decision as he looked down, the photo of the ultrasound slipping out of his grip and to the ground as he grabbed her hand as his tears continued falling. a wave of relief went through ophelia's body as she squeezed her husband's hand tighter as it finally felt like they were no longer running away from each other anymore.
"i'm sorry, mama. i just...i didn't know what else to do, i never imagined this would happen, people used to ask me if i thought my family had a curse put on us considering all the bad stuff that happened to us. i always rolled my eyes and thought it was a stupid thing but, i can't help but think they're right...i mean, this family can't be that unlucky, can it?" jaafar trembled as he finally made eye contact with his wife, his eyes puffy and red from his tears as ophelia's other hand crept up to his cheek to brush away the extra tears
"no honey, the jacksons are not cursed! i do think it's some terrible luck that all this misfortune has happened but i doubt any god or spiritual figure has put a curse on us. maybe us losing our first baby was telling us that right now isn't the right time to try for babies, we didn't fail. as much as it sucks that i'm no longer pregnant and we went through an unimaginable loss, it's not a curse," ophelia spoke softly, really accentuating to her husband that they were not a cursed family, sometimes it was just misfortune and shitty luck
"you're sure? i certainly feel like our family's cursed..." jaafar trailed off as ophelia pouted softly as she cuddled her husband closer with an extra tight squeeze as a little scoff left her mouth
"...i'm certain, j. i'll even pinky swear and you know i never break one of those *giggles*. this family is not cursed, not then, not now or the future. as much as i hate to agree with the doctors at the hospital, maybe they're right in saying the baby just wasn't ready and it wasn't our time. not because we're not ready to become parents because that day will come and when it does, it'll be the most amazing moment in our lives. but right now, that isn't happening for us and that's okay, just because it's happening to everyone else right now, doesn't mean it won't for us eventually. just hold on to the fact that just because it isn't right now, that it will be us one day," ophelia smiled softly as she watched her husband understand the words she was telling him as he nodded his head
"thanks, mama," he muttered softly as she smiled, resting her head against his as they sat there for a while before she decided it was probably a good idea to take jaafar home early so that's what she did without any complaints by the cast or crew
when i awoke, dear, i was mistaken so i hung my head and i cried
after a couple of hours of sleep, ophelia and jaafar woke up and, just like she imagined, she dreamt of holding their little baby so, she hung her head and she cried. and just like the way she was there for him that day, jaafar was there as he held his wife tightly as it was now her turn to cry over their shattering loss. although ophelia didn't cry for nearly as long as her husband did, she was still finally also allowing herself to fall asleep even though she knew she'd dream about baby and then wake up to then cry. she still knew she was always going to have jaafar there beside her to make sure that she'd never cry on her own like he had been doing for the longest time.
whispering comforting words and sweet nothings to his wife, jaafar held her as tightly as he could so he could make sure that she knew that, just like she had promised him, she wasn't alone in this sadness and grief of their baby.
for the jackson's, it took them about three to four weeks of heartwrenching cries after waking up in the mornings before it stopped and were able to go to sleep without dreaming of the baby and waking up in tears because of it. they loved that and called it progress in their grieving and loss journey. the michael biopic family had also welcomed the couple back with open arms when jaafar was finally honest with himself and took bereavement leave and then came back. it was obvious though when the cast and crew reunited that they were extremely happy and excited to be reunited with each other again and, the same could have been said with ophelia and jaafar's cousins, aunt and uncles.
"phee, how are you and jaafar going after the loss? you guys tried at it again, are you just waiting until it feels right, are you just not trying?" la toya questioned as she, ophelia and prince hung around the movie set
"we're going great thanks, toya, umm, we've had a lot of sex as honestly, losing baby wanted me to try even harder for a kid. so, we've decided that we're going to not actively try but not use any protection and just hope that a positive will come at some point," ophelia was confident and all smiles as she explained that to her aunty-in-law and cousin-in-law
which not just shocked them but made them all proud of her as when they spoke over facetime (mainly la toya and ophelia), the jacksons and michael cast and crew couldn't even say certain words like "loss", "sex", and "baby" because it would get too triggering for the grieving girl, reducing her to tears but, not anymore it wasn't
"phee, that's amazing! so, you still getting your period then?" nia then spoke up, accidentally overhearing the conversation as she and la toya moved closer to ophelia but further from prince as she giggled
"no...i've got a few tests that i'm gonna take today so, i'm hoping that what i think is happening is going to happen..." ophelia trailed off as the girls were shocked, they couldn't believe that their best friend/niece-in-law was most likely pregnant again
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey.
the news of ophelia jackson's second pregnancy was the best news that she could have ever gotten after that day on set for michael with nia and la toya. whilst it did give her a huge amount of deja vu of their first pregnancy and ultimately, their heartbreaking loss of the baby, the biggest emotion she felt was excitement and happiness. she was over the moon with the three tests that she held all saying that she was pregnant. and the best part about it was that unlike last time was that, she had gone through her first trimester of being pregnant without even really noticing it. meaning that she was at thirty weeks pregnant and only now just finding out.
ophelia squealed in excitement as she looked at the three pregnancy tests in front of her whilst her midwife could be heard giggling excitedly over the phone. all of the tests said "positive" with her midwife confirming that she was already thirty weeks pregnant and into the start of the second trimester. knowing that she no longer was in the danger zone like last time, she wanted to surprise jaafar again but, this time it had to be better. and better she did! this time, she upped her game and decided to have a special little helper to tell jaafar.
announcing the news to jaafar was probably the most exciting thing ever. just like the first time, he came home, she had set up her iphone to film his reaction as she set out the letterboard announcement for him to be told as she waited.
"mama, i'm home! sorry i'm late, filming went crazy long! where you at babe?" jaafar calls out as ophelia giggles softly
"in the kitchen babe, i have something for you!" ophelia calls back out which makes jaafar rush into the kitchen when he stops when he notices what was resting on the counter waiting for him
it took jaafar a couple of minutes to realise but the second he saw the ultrasound photo, it finally clicked in his head again that it was real and that ophelia was pregnant again. overwhelmed with happiness, his knees buckled and he dropped, his hand gripping the counter so he wouldn't fall and he broke down into tears, the one thing that jaafar felt as though he had spent half of this last part of this year and the last year doing.
ophelia smiled, giggling softly at her husband. joining her husband, she brought him close as they rejoiced together in the fact that they were getting their rainbow baby. crying into his wife's embrace, jaafar couldn't believe that he was going to be a dad. not really caring whether it was a boy or a girl, all he cared about was the fact that his wife was already over the first trimester and that they finally had a fair chance of having a healthy and successful pregnancy together.
immediately, just like the first time, with some reassurance from the midwife that it was okay, they told the rest of the michael biopic family and even better reactions came through over the first time. due to the newest baby being a rainbow baby, there was a lot more happy crying as their first reaction to the news which, seemed to be the best but common reaction when ophelia and jaafar told someone. the best reaction, however, had to of come from prince, jermaine and nia. they were told separately after the rest of the michael cast and the jackson family had been told. jaafar told prince and his dad and ophelia told nia, la toya with them since la toya had been told moments before. all three crying as they rejoiced that finally, their best friends and family were becoming parents after the loss of their first baby.
it was just a week after the start of their second trimester that the jackson's finally decided that not only would they start to post and announce their rainbow baby but they'd also talk about the miscarriage they suffered a couple of months earlier.
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jaafarjackson five months ago, opehlia had gotten pregnant with our first baby and only very few knew. we were overjoyed as were our family and friends that we had told. the second photo is from five months ago in comparison to the first photo that is us announcing our second baby (surprise!). we were so excited to announce the first pregnancy but it never got to happen because we lost the baby and it was a pain i thought i'd never experience. in saying that though, there's nothing wrong with trying for a second time because the universe does work in mysterious ways. ophelia is pregnant again with baby number two and we are all so excited as we move into the second trimester.
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opheliajackson that day i told you about this new pregnancy, i really did think i was going to have to ring 911 because of how much you were crying, i genuinely thought you weren't breathing. but, i am so glad we finally got to share this new pregnancy alongside the pain of the miscarriage
jaafarjackson opheliajackson in all honesty, i thought the same thing at one point! but, i am so ready to watch you and our child grow throughout this pregnancy mama!
princejackson i'm sorry but, i am still in tears over this! and to tell us whilst on set of the movie as well!
jaafarjackson princejackson maybe it wasn't the smartest and most efficient time and place to tell you but we genuinely couldn't hide it from everyone anymore!
officialjermainejackson congratulations again my babies! you'll be the best parents ever!
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad! that means a lot
iamnialong i agree with prince, i think i'm still too emotional over this news! congratulations you two, i love you both dearly
jaafarjackson iamnialong honestly, same!
kingofbingo seeing the reactions of the others to the news was honestly the best part about the whole thing!
jaafarjackson kingofbingo i know! it felt so cheeky to tell them whilst you and the others on set all knew!
parisjackson congratulations jaafar and phee! you'll be the best parents ever!
jaafarjackson parisjackson thanks paris!
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opheliavjackson before the joy that is jaafar and i's second baby, five months before, i was pregnant with our first baby. however, it was obviously not the right time as heartbreakingly, at around twelve/thirteen weeks, we lost our baby and i miscarried. this was of course, devastating for jaafar and i, it was gut-wrenching. especially as he's only just begun filming for the biopic about his late uncle. the first three months were the worst, i never thought i'd see that much heartbreak and grief from my family. losing our first baby after we had been trying so hard to concieve only to miscarry afterwards was soul-destroying.
now, jaafar and i are both in a much better place with our grief and now that i'm at the beginning of my second trimester with baby number two, we feel comforted and feel so blessed because we know that this isn't the reality for most families. and it's something we're not taking for granted at all. the first photo, like jaafar mentioned in his post, are the photos we took together after i had told him we were pregnant a second time and the second photo was from when jaafar, myself, jermaine and prince were at the hospital after finding out about the miscarriage. the story behind the photo is that i had to stay in the hospital a little bit longer than the four of us liked but, it was just to keep an eye on me. with the consideration that i was experiencing a lot more pain than what was normal so they had to keep me in for supervision. the photo of jaafar and i was taken by prince. even though it doesn't look like jaafar or i are upset, we were asleep because that at the time was all we could do at the time. we were so exhausted to the point that for the first few couple of days, we just slept. then, the third day i knew i wouldn't be able to sleep any longer because i would then dream about our baby we just lost. i would stay awake throughout the night because if i fell asleep, i would dream about the baby and then i'd wake up only to start crying. which was something i had told myself with determination that i wasn't going to do. i didn't want to be the mother who miscarried and just cried about the loss every day. even though i knew that was totally acceptable and more than okay, it just wasn't the grieving mother i wanted to be.
however, i then noticed the way jaafar grieved. or more so the way he wasn't grieving. he was adamant that he was okay to go back to work, denying the bereavement leave that he had so graciousy been given and went straight to work again. for a while, i pretended to go along with what he was doing hoping that he'd see right through my lies and talk with me about his grief and why he was trying so hard to ignore it. eventually, we came out the other side of the grief and now i'm thirty weeks and two days pregnant and baby jackson is as healthy as their older baby sibling was. jaafar and i are extremely excited to be parents again and it's all we can think about. now that i've passed all the dates of the possible miscarrying dangers, i'll now be posting my bumpdates and updating you all about the pregnancy. we are genuinely so excited and cannot wait to introduce our baby to you all and i'm sure baby jackson can't wait either. thank you all for the love and support you guys have given us over these few months even though we left you guys in the dark. it truly means so much to know that you guys still love and support us.
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jaafarjackson i am so excited about baby two! you are going to be an amazing mom, phee and i can already tell
opheliajackson jaafarjackson awe, honey, you are so sweet! you are going to be an amazing dad!
iamnialong i'm so proud of you two for not giving up just because you guys lost the first baby. i cannot wait to watch baby grow inside you, my love!
opheliajackson iamnialong thank you nia! and i cannot wait for little baby to grow either!
jermajestyjjackson that photo of you in the hospital after you miscarried and sent to the group chat via prince is always going to haunt me but, just knowing that the next time you're there, is when you'll be giving birth just takes away all the fear
opheliajackson jermajestyjjackson oh absolutely maj, that photo is a photo i never thought would ever have to be seen, taken and then seen again. and i agree, the next time i'll be at the hospital will no doubt be the best day of my life
parisjackson congratulations ophelia and jaafar! you guys really deserve a family! cannot wait to watch you on this journey phee, you and jaafar will be perfect parents!
opheliajackson parisjackson awe, thank you paris! that means so much!
officialjermainejackson i'm so happy for my two babies! hopefully baby jackson becomes a singer or actor like their parents
opheliajackson officialjermainejackson jermaine, i love you, but please just wait until our baby is born and grows up a little bit older than the jackson five were
you'll never know dear how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away
a little over eight months later, ophelia had given birth to a very healthy little boy, atlas michael jackson. atlas was jaafar and ophelia's pride and joy and was loved by everyone. but especially by his michael cast/jackson family uncles and aunties and that was always shown since he was constantly being spoilt, especially by his godfather and favourite uncle prince. but, all the toys, clothes and superficial things he was being given didn't seem to faze the little obsessed boy as all he cared about now was the fact that he was going to be an older brother for a third time.
and yes, you did hear that correctly, ophelia and jaafar were bringing their third and final cherub into the world after a little over a year ago had introduced their second little boy, brooks jaafar jackson into the world before falling pregnant with who they thought was their final baby that turned into plural when it was discovered that this final pregnancy was twins. i mean, the jackson's didn't plan on having more than three kids but, they loved the idea of having two boys and two girls so, they were pretty pleased when they did find out that the gender of the twins were two identical twin girls.
so, completing the jackson family were two little girls. the photo that ophelia posted to announce that she was pregnant with her twins was a photo of when she was heavily pregnant since she had already given birth to their twins. she decided that instead of how she announced atlas and brooks' pregnancies to the world that she'd wait until maternity photos had been taken and then give birth to the girls to announce that she and jaafar had given birth to their twins. even though jaafar and the michael cast had now finished filming the biopic and it was nearing its release date, constantly talking about the baby news and celebrating it, jaafar and ophelia still wanted to post their little girls since it had been a few weeks to a month since giving birth to them.
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opheliajackson zaylee paris jackson and noelle ophelia jackson, we have waited so long for you my loves. atlas and brooks are so excited to meet you i think they're being a lot more impatient than mommy and daddy are. these photos are probably the sweetest, funniest and most tear-jerking photos i have in my camera roll. the first two, i was still pregnant with little zaylee and noelle and, the third one, they were brought earthside and we couldn't be more blessed that the two girls are finally here. zaylee is older by two minutes with noelle born two minutes later, both in march, my two little water babies just like their mommy. the third photo is of me with the little loves, photo courtesy of their godmother, paris since their daddy was taking care of their older brothers.
the photos you may see later are of the two boys meeting zaylee and noelle for the first time because it is quite the adorable moment. zaylee paris and noelle ophelia, you both are so loved by so many my little ocean babies. i am so blessed, as is your daddy, older brothers, aunties, uncles and cousins that you have finally joined our family. the meaning behind the names of zaylee and noelle are as simple as possible. zaylee is named zaylee paris because of her beautiful godmother, the ever-beautiful and my cousin-in-law, paris jackson. i knew from the moment jaafar and i found out we were having twins that paris was going to be the godmother to both girls but one of them, whoever was the eldest, was going to be named after paris. noelle was called noelle because that is my mom's name and it's self-explanatory why her middle name is ophelia so no explanation there is needed. like previously said, we had been waiting for zaylee and noelle that when we did find out we were pregnant with the two of you, we jumped for joy. atlas and brooks also jumping for joy when they found out they were getting not just one baby sister but two! brooks especially loves the fact that he finally gets to be a big brother after being the baby but especially to two sisters. we love you forever zaylee paris and noelle ophelia.
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jaafarjackson ok, well shit babe, you made me cry all over again! i knew we made a great choice by naming one of our daughters paris
opheliajackson jaafarjackson we really did make a great choice. i already know just how connected zaylee and paris are going to be
parisjackson i still cannot believe that you finally have your little girls and that one of them is named after me as well as making me their godmother! thank you so much, ophelia, i could never thank you enough for giving me the blessing to be involved in your kids' lives!
opheliajackson parisjackson we can't either and, it was a decision we had made from the very beginning and there was no way we weren't going to stick to it. we love you more than words could ever express paris! you already are the best godmother to little zaylee and noelle
iamnialong i still cannot believe we'll all get to meet little zaylee and noelle soon! they are just gorgeous, phee!
opheliajackson iamnialong i know nia! i cannot wait for you to meet them!
kingofbingo oh my god! i still cannot believe that zaylee and noelle are finally here! the love these two princesses are going to get is going to be neverending
opheliajackson kingofbingo i'm still struggling to believe it too, coleman! and i agree, they'll be protected for life as well
officialjermainejackson congratulations ophelia, jaafar and to atlas and brooks! zaylee and noelle are gorgeous! how generous of you to name your eldest daughter after paris!
opheliajackson officialjermainejackson thank you so much, jermaine! and i was always going to name my eventual daughter after paris, how couldn't i? she's family, more than just my husband's cousin
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jaafarjackson introducing babies three and four, identical twin girls zaylee paris and noelle ophelia verstappen. atlas and brooks are a little too obsessed with their twin sisters at the moment but, honestly, we're just glad we've completed our small family and we're just relieved that the two boys love their twin sisters. the first photo is of ophelia, pregnant with the girls at the beach with atlas on her shoulders, i had brooks with me so that's why he wasn't in the photo and, i just thought it was too good for me to not post. the second photo is of ophelia, looking absolutely stunning. if you can't already tell, we loved taking pregnancy photos anywhere we went so yeah, enough said! the third photo is of mama, brooks and the girls, once again, at the beach but this time as part of a photoshoot as this was relatively early in the pregnancy before we even knew that we were having twins. and the last photo is of atlas and brooks with the two girls and we just love how beautiful it is. we love you so much zaylee paris and noelle ophelia, thank you for completing the jackson family.
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opheliajackson lordy lord, there are so many photos of atlas and brooks with the girls that at this point, i think that's all i have in my camera roll right now. but, that's only because i keep on taking photos of them together.
jaafarjackson opheliavjackson my camera roll is the same and i am not complaining! we make some very cute kids!
rjacksonjr i'm going to cry omg, even just looking at these photos, it's insane how quickly zaylee and noelle have both grown and they're not even a full month old yet!
jaafarjackson rjacksonkr speak for yourself, randy! i thought having two little boys would have made me all the more emotional but no, the moment phee and i found out just the one baby was twins but girls, i was gone and it was as though i was the one that was pregnant!
princejackson this is lovely, jaafar! both zaylee and noelle are just gorgeous and growing so quickly! i cannot wait to see the little angels again, i am so excited!
jaafarjackson princejackson i know, both girls are mom's twins, funny enough! and the boys and twins are getting excited to see their uncle as well!
iamnialong i can't stop looking through the photos that you and phee have sent to us of the twins! they're both just too gorgeous to look away!
jaafarjackson iamnialong that's basically me every single day, i just can't stop looking at them and holding them! i genuinely still cannot believe me and phee have two little girls
jermajestyjjackson oh, aren't zaylee and noelle just beautiful! you and phee really have made the most gorgeous-looking kids! i cannot wait to just squish zaylee's and noelle's little cheeks!
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson aren't they just, maj?! and i know, i said the same thing and, i squish their cheeks all the time and even then i need to do it more
what originally started off for the jackson's as a heartbreaking miscarriage turned into them having a gorgeous little family of six with their four beautiful kids, atlas, brooks, zaylee and noelle alongside their families.
ophelia and jaafar's sunshine was no longer taken away from them.
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this was a lot of fun to rewrite but it did start off really sad so i do apologise for that but i hope the ending made up for the depressing beginning.
