july 26th, 2016.
kuningan is warm today..
it was another busy day in the hospital, patients come and go and i have full schedule for me today...
but when the night comes and i’m all alone again, the chills and the big hole in my heart starts to punching again, and trust me it hurts so bad. the feel where you all alone, the feel where you miss everything and everyone.the feel where you just lie there trying to fell asleep and forget everything once again..
the thing is, the moment i decided to leave bandung and leave everything behind is what i think the best for me, because after all, i moved to start a new beginning for me..and it was hard, it was really hard, and really painful..
the day i left bandung i left a lot of bad things, - i never say goodbye to all my friend. - i say shit and almost got into a fight with one of my bestfriend (i considered him as a brother for me) and it was my mistake - i confessed a love to a friend i adore, and then decided to leave it all behind cause i had a girlfriend that time.
it haunts me really bad, because i didn’t say goodbye, i didn’t say sorry for all my mistakes, i didn’t say i love you cause i did from the bottom my heart..
and social media makes it worse, even though i was happy for all the moments they have, the smiles on their faces, the moments when they were together.. it hurts me so much because the fact that i wasn’t there, the fact i can’t see their faces..it hurts me, a lot.
so on this post, i would say : - for al and all my friends in biru corp, that i’m really sorry for what i’ve done to all of you, all the post and shit i was saying, it wasn’t true, it wasn’t real, i was forced to do it, and i was to scared to say it in front of you guys.. thank you for holding my back, keeping me up when i’m down, fired up my heart and make me feel important again. - for db i’m really happy that you got married, hope you have a happy life, i’m really jealous of you, you son of a gun - for egy,agi,mukhlis and all my friends that i cant mention all of you by names. thank you for everything, you all know that i love you from the bottom of my heart.
thank you for everything, thank you, thank you...
i always wait the time we could meet again, love you guys, thank you..
