I think I'm getting gayer.
Over the play I did recently there was this guy, like, when he walked into the room on the first day, all the girls just melted.
Swishy hair, jaw line of a God, stubble, blue eyes, had a Master's degree, best performer out of everyone by far, shy and modest, but witty and sharp...
Everyone loved himmm, and like, the play is over now. And he would pop up on chat again and again... Just genuinely interested in what I was doing! He remembered when my last shift was at work, asked me how it was to leave, even asked me to link him to a jumper I bought that I was in love with and kept going on about so he could see it, ahhaha!! My my. And now, after telling me how shy he gets with girls and how he never makes the first move, he gave me his number and asked me to let him know if I wanted to do anything next week.
Shit. Where the hell did that come from. He didn't even physically speak to me the whole rehearsal process?!
And instead of flattered, or like, anything really - I just feel completely gay! Ha. I didn't think I was totally gay?!
But I just like girls.
I like my girl!! I want her, that's all I want.
I would pick collar bones over muscles any day.
Hair to play with, lips, hips, a waist, eyelashes....
No matter what the guy is like, I frickin' like girls. I know this. I always knew this ha. I think I just need to let myself deal with it.