Jan 1, 2017
oof but do you ever sometimes get so empty, like you ate a big lump of null and now it's pushing against your insides and jostling them all around... i don't know the exact articulation but maybe the closest thing is feeling like a waste, like you had the chance to be full and you didn't take it. like something's still too heavy for you and you're not over that. like a lot of things are, and they pack up and the build and, thinking about the word "safe" -- you don't want it to be safe. maybe you want it to hurt more, and hurt worse, and be real sensation instead of the idea of containment... of being held back. that 4 am sensation of desolation, and that question of, is there more?