blech!!

  that it should come to this!  

[glumshoe]

[blec]

people always used to say i seemed uncomfy with hugs but i was just never acclimated with them... I love hugs big warm long hugs where you can participate and interface core to core and no one's in a rush to disentangle... they're probably my Fave

[blec]

someone's playing mac demarco behind me and I'm sweating

[blec]

sometimes the way i experience my body is most akin to those gender-bender novels where the protagonists are of the opposite sex and magically switch bodies, and then the dude is looking in the mirror (this pubescent guy who’s never been lucky with the girls or s/t) and he’s like...ah! boobs! and he’s lifting his shirt and titillated because man he’s so close to them? he’s got them? isn’t that exciting? and then he realizes he can take off his pants and see it all and he’s absolutely losing it !!

i don’t think i even care about transitioning aside from in a social sense because...holy heck

[blec]

i met this guy at film club/the afterparty who’s fairly into me and i mean he was pretty smashed as the night went on so he was getting like…benignly touchy just tapping my knees or catching my leg between his own and every time we sustained eye contact he seemed kinda amazed like… I don’t know what he was seeing but maybe it was just how his eyebrows upticked or s/t and we were talking star signs and I was like “virgo or libra!!” for sure those pleasantest of signs but it was rather “sagittarius”! and then i realized he just reminded me of my first gf

[blec]

I'm so bad at following the golden rule I feel so bad my response is to be mellower instead of better? and i think it's consistent now to have a sort of cognitive estrangement from people I'm really close to...mainly because, i guess, i repress a bit and i fundamentally want to be listened to But instead of being a gentle, shy, romantic figure working up courage bit by bit I get bored... I'm a scary person, too

[toshibu]

Tokyo, Japan

[blec]

I'm dating the most patient + indulgent girl in the world I'm sweating... I'm the big messy passive aggressive untrusting verbally nasty oversensitive problematic one and it's both liberating and aa a a

[the-crone]

the sweetest boy

[blec]

nsfw!

[blec]

“people just go overboard on positivity!! it’s too extreme and too complacent and no one ever wants to be told they’re wrong!!”

listen...listen sometimes it’s nice to feel good. it feels good to care. you are yelling as u say this i don’t think the issue is...what other people are doing.

[alehandramilk]

[blec]

aaa I'm back to my pre college weight but i wanna lose more and the meal restriction is. ridiculous

[blec]

i keep having dreams where an event moves me to tears and then someone walks in and i have to wipe, i have to pretend they're not there. it's causing me waking stress

[blec]

oof but do you ever sometimes get so empty, like you ate a big lump of null and now it's pushing against your insides and jostling them all around... i don't know the exact articulation but maybe the closest thing is feeling like a waste, like you had the chance to be full and you didn't take it. like something's still too heavy for you and you're not over that. like a lot of things are, and they pack up and the build and, thinking about the word "safe" -- you don't want it to be safe. maybe you want it to hurt more, and hurt worse, and be real sensation instead of the idea of containment... of being held back. that 4 am sensation of desolation, and that question of, is there more?

[blec]

blessed year!!

[sandyminn]

Sometimes I feel like I’m only meant for myself