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4am thought, I’ve decided I’m happy again.

That’s It.

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Someone should either hug me, kiss me or set me on fire.

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I’m currently In a stage of my life where people who know nothing about me pass self righteous judgement upon me and the people who know me think nothing of me.

I’m stuck on the borderline of caring too much and not caring at all and It frustrates me when my mind can’t keep quiet about all the things I've lost on top of that.

I used to have friends, I used to be loved, I used to be strong, I used to know who I was, now that I don’t have any of those things anymore I feel like I’m drowning.

I can’t remember who I was before I had these things, I think I killed him to better suit the people around me and then they abandoned me.

So I keep asking myself the same questions over and over.

Why did I care?

Why should I care?

Why do I care?

Who am I now?

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If anyone was wondering what my new years resolutions were I'd like to preemptively tell you to fuck right the hell off. 

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Ok so I should be getting a kitten soon.

I'm going to take this opportunity to preemptively let you know that when my dash gets flooded with photos of said kitten I won't be even a little sorry. 

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Sometimes I feel like my Ipod Is the only one who understands me.

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I'm bored, someone send me an ask or a crossword puzzle or something.

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Sorry I haven't been very active lately, I've been spending a lot of time making music tracks with my friend Kyle and I'm moving soon so that's been taking up most of my spare time.

I will say that Kyle and I have decided to start our own music project called Symbiotic and we nearly have enough tracks for an EP now so I'm super excited about that. I'll update on this when we've finished mixing the tracks we have.