Moving On
Few days back, I came across an online article titled "Being sole breadwinner is bad for men’s health but good for women". Suddenly it brought back all the memories & tough times after my parents divorced. It was bitter, of course, but I gotta respect them & their decision. 12 years ago, when my parents divorced, I asked myself if I could provide a comfortable life for my mum & myself like how my dad did. We were not rich but we lived comfortably. Though my parents taught me to be independent, to work hard to get for what I want & myself started working part-time while in secondary school, still, it wasnt easy when suddenly almost the bulk of the responsibilities fell on my shoulder. my mum was no longer working then, except of looking after my cousins. So, the income was minimal and I didnt want my mum to be working full time again. I struggled badly, broke down many times. At the age of 18 & still schooling, I'd to juggle a lot of things. But seeing how strong my Mama is all along, that gave me a boost to continue being a fighter. Today, 12 years after, we are not rich. But, I'm glad we lead a comfortable life, slightly more than average. I'm so glad that I manage to provide a good & comfortable life for mama and myself. Importantly, we are happy! Happy to see how happy Mama is. Blessed to get Mama's doa' & restu in every step I take. Being a sole breadwinner is not bad afterall. It gives me some sense of pride and accompishment. it has been a long 12 years. things have changed, people have drifted apart, etc. From a hot headed-angsty 18 years old to a matured-firm-less angsty 30 years old. I'm still learning to be a better person & of course, better daughter. I wish to write longer & elaborate more, but I know my emotion would not let me to. Just a thing to note, I never feel I come from a broken famile despite their divorce. Cos its their marriage that failed but not their parenting. Till the next post (: