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I'm just gonna rant a bit here.
I haven't done anything with my dolls for a while. I really really want to, but I cannot seem to find the time OR space to do so. I have a hundered ideas, but they never happen. My room is a mess, trying to fix a decent place for the dolls when I'm not using them, but I'm never home beacuse I'm at my boyfreinds trying to clean his apartement (he helps of course) so that we can move. When is that gonna happen? Everything is so sloooooow and I get depressed for not having the time and space to do all the creative things I want. Fuck. Can't take this anymore, and i feel like a bad person for having these beautiful dolls and nor beeing able to do things with them. I really love them, but I haven't had time to connect with my newest doll that much. argh!!! Not gonna say sorry for any mistakes in my english here 'cause no one is gonna read this. Don't even know why I write this in english.
for short: I don't have time. I want to have time. This is making me depressed.
And yeah, gonna loose my job as well. They can't afford me. This is great, I'm so mad and sad. Sorry for all the complaining. I'm just tired of feeling stressed over things and not have the time to do something about it. Now I'm gonna go and clean in anger. GUUUAAARRGGGHHFIWJIWAJODJAWodppma Hejdå era jäkla snuskpellar.