An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: Fate/Grand Order, Fate/stay night & Related Fandoms Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Fujimaru Ritsuka, Female Fujimaru Ritsuka, Mash Kyrielight | Shielder, Sherlock Holmes | Ruler, Miyamoto Musashi | Saber, Romani Archaman, Edmond Dantès | Avenger, Hades (Fate/Grand Order), Kirschtaria Wodime, Altria Caster | Caster Additional Tags: Black Barrel, Exploring consequences of the Black Barrel, And also looking at a darker side of the relationship between Mash and Ritsuka, Angst, As a friend put it good egg Ritsuka is breaking, also the effects of Aphrodite's song, Dream Sequences, revisiting the dead, Suicidal Thoughts, Hope, Garden of Lost Will Summary:
Taking place in Lostbelt 5 after defeating Aphrodite, Ritsuka is forced to reckon with what the Black Barrel is doing to her body. Those around her have different reactions to this new process, all of them pushing in different directions. What can she do? Is there anything to be done? What does it mean to fight, and what does it mean to die?
“It’s something only I can do.” “Even though it’s hurting you?” “I don’t have a choice.”












