Self doubt is a subtle reflection of a lack of belief in your own vision. If I can believe in God, I’m essentially believing in myself because I’m his fruit. The game has never gifted me a set of circumstances I couldn’t overcome. Actually I want the smoke because I know I’m not a saint. There’s all types of blood on my hands. Directly or indirectly so I don’t deserve a plea bargain. Mercy is for the new borns or the elderly. My friends that are fathers are far more better men than I could ever imagine being. I think about the polarities of my decisions. There’s a billion dollars worth of free game inside me. I took it further than my own father but I’m still nowhere near on his level until there’s blood here for me to pass it all on to.Being from St.Louis you process mortality in a unique way. It’s not negative— it’s reality.... a stork eats a fish and sh*ts it back into this same lake. The bacteria from the storks sh*t fertilizes the plants. The cycle of life continues. The fish survived solely off of eating smaller fish so no justice is needed. They found five people dead on Green Valley over the weekend. One of them stole my bike when we were kids and lied about it. Even as adults I pressed him about it once and he still decided to lie to me. The cycle of life says we can’t control the variables of this sh*t but it keeps going rather or not we choose to overstand the science of our identities. #CompleteTheMission #Blackjulian #FMG https://www.instagram.com/p/BzqIsNZBO7q/?igshid=i12i5f25vmdb