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blaekanderson replied to your photo: breaking news: sad teen blogger drinks tea and...

[falls to my knees]

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Thanks guys... I'm sorry. I'll... be okay eventually. I just can't take this much emotional pain and toying. It really is too much for me to handle in my current emotional state. I don't know what to do anymore. But thank you. I love you girls so much. So much.

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I just...

I'm sorry. I'll be okay. I'm sorry if I scared or upset you Spencer. I'm just so ugh... It's not fair. I hate how unfair people are. It hurts a LOT.

My mom can just be so awful sometimes and it really sucks. I mean most of the time it's okay... we avoid each other for the most part. She always has a nasty attitude and I just ugdhfgskdfjgnslfkdgjn.

but whatever. And the other reason I've been so upset if because of this fight with Alex and not knowing whether she's going to forgive me and believe me when I say I'm so fucking sorry and I wish I could take it back... not to mention that I'm absoLUTELY changing this medicine when I see my doc next Friday... but I just aosjgfaljgk I don't know, I'm scared. I'm really really scared. I don't want to lose a friend and such a good rper. I really love the way she plays Brendon. It's just... I love it. I just... I'm going to leave her alone for a few days or until she wants to talk again.. and just hope that she'll give us another chance.

I know she loves my Dallon.. and she told me (as Brendon) that even though he fucks up and sometimes leaves, he'll always come back... so I just hope... I hope she meant that and wasn't just saying it as Brendon. It really fucking hurst that she's posting statuses and telling everyone that Dallon died in a car wreck.. that really really hurts. I guess I deserve that.

I'm just so sorry. I would do whatever it takes to get her and Brendon back.

So that's the MAIN reason I've been feeling like cutting and then this thing with my mom pushed it over the edge to suicidal thoughts. It's horrible. I just want Brendon back and that will give me the ability to cope with everything else that's shit in my life. I don't care how stupid that sounds, it makes me happy and whatever makes you happy can't be wrong.

idk that's all I guess.

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blaekanderson replied to your post: HA! So much for feeling better!

just remember u have a shit ton of ppl who love and support u here and in real life!!!!

That doesn't help me get out of this hell hole away from my mom who treats me like shit most of the time and yells at me for spending money when I get some. What the fuck does she expect? I'm just going to save it? How can I fucking save money when there's things I NEED to buy with that money?! I just want to end it all. I can't remember the last time I felt this bad and this suicidal. I don't know what to fucking do.

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blaekanderson replied to your post: Well I mean, like if they were all single then yeah I would probably sleep with them. But they are all in committed relationships and I just can’t imagine doing that. Idk. I just don’t like being labeled a groupie too, you know?

hannah i feel u on the dallon thing 100%

I know you do, bby, I know you do. <3

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