#blanket trigger warning

[lostchips]

Lol thought spiral

I was close with my aunt up until I came out to her and like, life happened and we didn't hang out as much because I was working and in school and grandpa got sicker then and needed more care so like, did we distance ourselves from each other or did she visit less and invite me out less because GAY

I suppose it isn't worth thinking about and doesn't change anything.

[evil-bisexual]

It’s weird seeing some people celebrate each other on best friend day

When they’ve literally tried kill, manipulate, and emotionally harm each before.

What.

[yikes98]

unfollowmeunfollowmeunfollowmeunfollowmeunfollowmeunfollowmeunfullowme (tears my hair out) GET AWAY GET AWAY GET AWAY 

[releasethemurderbirds]

i mean i'm supposed to be the clever, pretty, well adjusted, child

instead i'm the one that made themselves throw up every meal for a year and then fucking scar themselves for life 

i mean i'm not even that clever

i'm good at telling stories but academically i'm slightly above average

and i don't have enough vindication for a career path

i mean what the fuck am i going to do with an arts degree

once i'm done with this fucking school that is

urgh

and i'm not really as pretty as people think i am

i'm certainly not thin

though ironically i'm thinner than i was when i wouldn't eat for three days at a time

idek man

i have awful skin

even if it cleared up it would still be scarred to fuck

and i hate my jawline

fucking hate it

and the more i type this out the more i realise i sound like one of those vapid girls i swore i'd never become

but i wonder how much of it was really vapidness and how much was just internalised hatred

i can't burden my family with my problems

it's just not fair on them

and i cost so much to keep

i should work harder

oh fuck my work uniform shows my forearms

fuck

i didn't think about that

huh

better get prepared for a lot of questions

but most of all i'm pissed i won't be able to wear that suit i made for a while until i'm healed enough to feel comfortable showing my skin again

this was a helpful vent yes