#bleary posting

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Vaguely a nightmare about high school orchestra concert and running away up a mountain during some sentimental slideshow for seniors that I was unaware of and had a sense that I hadn’t played for at least 2 years. Could remember the song and didn’t know seating and the venue was weird.

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Had a dream that I was scrambling to find a seat in a full exam and the only spot was next to my middle school crush who I had been pretending not to acknowledge went to the same school. It was a stupid exam and I couldn’t find my grade in the sequel dream about the new building’s construction so oh well

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worst string of dreams of being on campus with my family nearby all night. First I was frustrated and enraged because they couldn’t drive me back to campus on time for my exam. I felt like I had missed an 8 amvwcause i could picture 3 marks on my calendar but one was an essay I hsd already turned in. But I still jad time to make it back for APUSH in Lmkigw at 10:30 expect things kept going wrong. I ended up drifting back into tbe dream by the Lou’s condo with my laptop in hand and was like fuck I was supposed to go to my dorm. Then another dream intersection about working on some creature in a high room and eventually surviving the provocation from experimenting and the overseer of whatever gave us nachos. But during that dream I realized fuck I missed apush and was back in tbe dream. I went about with my goal of doing something (?) trying not to miss my calc exam at 4:30 (if also kept exchanging with a practical chem lab final). I was coming up to my room to prepare my things (I was also supposed to pack to leave in the time between) but also was trying to find my high school history notes since I was about to write my email asking if I could take the exam tonight or tomorrow. Came up the stairwell as Rikka fell from her bridge-y door step s floor above and twisted her leg. Decided to be nice and ask if she was okay but I ended up being her crutch to the elevator and in it where there was a lot of people and they had pushed buttons for most floors, so we had to wait ad it went all the way to 8 before the lobby (except tbe button said 6) and while up there k tried to bring this dog that also had hurt legs but could still walk and I got him out of his room but didn’t hold the elevator long enough. We go back down looking for where to go for medical help and the lobby is different because there’s tables with vendors. She buys honey sticks from this guy who didn’t know where she should go and at tbe next table tbe girls deride rhe quality of those sticks and still don’t give is an answer. But it transitions to me looking st and arranging all their pretty stickers but not wanting to buy them even though most would fit perfectly. Notable that I’m also upset and on the verge of sobbing the whole dream and I never write my emails. I’d taken the stairs earlier and seen these scrawny kangaroos in a room earlier but idk when that could’ve been. I saw Ixvwz in tbe elevator and responded bad when she asked how I was doing but then got off in the wrong floor while telling her to stay strong through her finals. And she looked confused like wondering if I was in the section below this whole time. Except to get to my floor I had to take the stairs down instead of up again? It was yellow in there idk how, maybe wall color. Looking through this rectangular hole in the wall into a former bathroom some girls in ppe were working with a bunch of lined up squirrels and baby kangaroos. I knew it was about rabies and that the animals were from out building and thought damn all this happened while I was taking that girl downstairs with her leg. So I’m in the stairwell and going down the walls are covered in red colored tape with the number looking hole made. I think it was 40, then 4.5 then 4. At 4.5 I notice that there’s warnings under the number saying it’s a red zone, and I get scared. Turning the corner onto my floor I’m in coming out of the stairwell closer to my room. I still have to check the room number because the dream layout is different from in person

The whole hallway is red and flickering with beeping lights and I’m scared because I’m wondering what is wandering around for us to be this bad. I get in the room and half heartedly am studying for history and trying to mentally draft emails and despairing about missing my second exam (forgot what point) and thinking of where I should go outside the building. I’m considering inviting my roommate to stay with me and my parents out in town when I wake up.

very windy dream and I felt bad the whole time and spell check fought me the entire time I was writing. Going to be incomprehensible to my future self.

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Reslly visually detailed Benyonce concert dream that I can’t actually be bothered to recount, and then evil Jungle rope ride in empty amusement park that turned into an apparition of the vast but went back to normal because I was having fun

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I liked this dream. Started in a parking lot doing something to the car next to me except it's not to scale. Just as I finish taping it up with a black and gold piece of tape with some numbers on it, the owner comes out. I know I'm not supposed to get caught taking what was in there so I leave. I'm going through narrow streets that have a light tone to them (fpgwq oigb alleys pretty much) but I don't get followed. Somehow I end up on a high floor of an abandoned hotel building and there's two guys talking around the corner. I'm scared and soft-spoken when I creep out from around the corner. Don't remember if they know what I'd done at this point or later. They're asking who I am and the older guy holds a gun to my head and I just kind of keep talking and pleading but I didn't get sobby which is out of character for how much it made my stomach drop. At some point before they take me inside I befriend a fluffy, grey cat with a white belly and cuddling him helps me calm down. The inside is not as all brown as the balcony and looks kind of normal. The younger one from outside (I call him the fox later) tells me to go in that room over there. I turn around when I reach the door, which has a wooden frame and is the last on the wall facing the other side, I get the attention of a different guy at a desk in front of a window opposite me and gesture to ask if this is the right door and he waves me in. I'm trying to figure out how to close and lock it when I realize the pink ribbon on the side isn't in the way, but it covers it that in such a way that the door locks itself and there's no way to unlock it from in the room. I do that and sit in the room. Forgot if the cat is with me. There's a queen/king bed on the right with rundown white covers I later see are covered in blood stains around the pillows and some lower down the sheet, and it's not decorated. I end up sitting on the floor and looking through the window wall down into a courtyard with a thick canopy of trees. In a balder spot I see an owl (maybe a short-eared) who looks back at me. There's also one I mark as younger even though it's not much smaller because it has balder legs like a burrowing owl. The fox comes back but I forgot if it was before or after the party, which I watched in a small reflection on the glass because it was directly below me. I got the impression they were celebrating an upcoming victory. I sitting on the bed I ask the fox what those stains on the bed are even though I know. He doesn't answer. Forget if it's here but I get a flashback to what I was doing with the car. It's like caleb nichols in a dark and indigo lit room talking about credit points (not like a score, more like travel points) and i figure out that I was doing something I forgot to the old ladies' car. I took something from it but I also sealed some points inside? and that explained the numbers on the tape I used to seal it up. The fox then told me what these rebels did, which I also forgot, but it was maybe something like regulating the points industry, which I understood in a roundabout sense as also having given me my job? I point out the owls outside to him, now having moved to the left side of the courtyard since I saw them, and we watch the mom fly across the pale street. The fox leaves. He sends me something and as I'm lowering it down from a high point next to the door, it's like small rectangular pictures attached to a white pvc bit. I think I saw it as a kind of sneaky romantic gesture but idk why. As I'm puzzling through the photos the door opens and I'm terrified. Forget what happens but suddenly I'm on a computer and the pictures are things I'm using to make it through some kind of program. Then more people come in and there's this girl trying to help me through the program and I keep pushing the wrong buttons and exiting the wrong menus in a really embarrassing way. She reminded me of Kana arima.

I'm trying to put together this contraption related to the computer that involves screwing some pasta-like shapes together. I think I pause to talk to the fox now in the open doorway but nothing I remember and the dream trickles off there. Final notes: I liked how terrified I felt throughout the dream but within it I had thought of myself as being well-composed. Putting it into words I think I just sound weirdly meek. I overdetailed this because I can still see the scenes really clearly even as the plot begins to fade.

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had the most dad hating dream. My mom woke my up but it didn’t work, my dad wouldn’t leave. An hour or angry sobbing follow where I yell and swear and throw shit at him about how he doesn’t care about me or respect me. Stuff about messing with my playlists or whatever. The things he did sounded childish but it was the way he felt no remorse and even thought it was funny that had me so worked up. I don’t remember much, but I remember telling him that I hoped he died worse than anyone in yellowjackets (it was brought up as the next in a line of things he had found me watching and was trying to warp somehow to hurt me?).

There was a semi transition to the next one and now my brother is there. We were on this really beautiful snowy place and boarding a train. In between taking pictures, I ask my mom over my shoulder what would happen if I went no contact with my father. At the destination of the train, I had to pair up and fight these ice themed girls, and I was so brutal and angry while doing it. At the end I tho j I won but my male cat had died and I was furious at the way my dad was acting like it didn’t happen and my brother was confused but discounting its importance (we were in my living room now). Through some mini transition it was the end of the day and we were near disney because I saw a bunch of sunset photos on instagram. And a zoom meeting where members of Jiwqmlgid’v soccer team were dead in flash flooding. Somewhere in all that we were talking are how far some of the music festivals would be and that they could end up like 12 hour trips even though I knew they were on bunches of nearby islands. Idk when that was but we were on some kind of gangway and talking about it with a stranger jn the group.

I couldn’t describe the level of petty, bitter fury I was feeling throughout the dreams. No inciting incident irl, which I find weird

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[saved as a draft 2 days ago and forgot to post]

Arguing and fighting with my dad. Fire seen through the window on the stairs, start packing up unsuccessfully. There had been a school part before that I don’t eme member as I looked for my polo in closet so I'd be ready to go back after the fire stuff. Then zombie one. Forgot who I was with. Got deja vu within dream as I saw party members change into one I'd seen before by a force within the dream. At some point there was a plane. Then the dress place I walked in looking at them until random shopper invited me to touch silk and read cleaning instructions on displays. Then saw Vigiq who I was there for and followed her into long part of the shop with rows of racks like a ross. Her coworker doing some kid’s makeup or something. Then Eigv wandering around sadly, had coworker sign a message he wrote to himself in his yearbook and wandered back to the side where there was a cat tree like mine. Gz was there too and I said that I guessed I wasn’t his friend anymore. Dream gets blurry, Ngifjmvji is there, they’re doing some kind of voting. I’d been watching lots of olpers circle the area on a map even though it’s an hour north and summertime. Am told by shop owner to step out during voting, I almost eat shit tripping in Eigv in the walkway. Make it out, look for bathroom. It’s past entrances and on the side of a building in an elevator pit. I jog up to beat other one approaching. Push on and step onto platform which sinks down and I start toward the toilet. Other one yells something down about it working? I say yes and wake up ñ

It was a lot I don’t have time to spell check I had to get it out