TW: abusive behavior, transphobic mentioned slightly, and multiple panic attacks on multiple occasions.
"AHH PLEASE" hic "STOP I'M SORRY!!" I scramble to get up but I'm hit once again and I cry out in pain. Tears falling down my cheeks, I shouldn't have dated him. Another hit and my arm breaks, I scream in pain and more tears come running my face and use my other arm that has the knife and I swing forward hard. Blood splatters and he falls, passed out but I know he won't be for long. I limp and struggle towards the door. 'Almost there' I thought wrong he wakes up with a jolt and grabs my ankle with a tight grasp and yanks me down. I yelp and kick him square in the face. He groans in pain holding his face.
I make a run for it, I dash through the halls and finally made it to the exit. I could hear someone or something call my name when I escaped but it felt familiar. (Yukai!)
There it is again! Fuck where is it coming from. (Yukai! Wake up)
I jolt wake feeling the drool from my face to the desk I sat in. I groaned annoyed that I fell asleep during the lecture once again. Minku looks at me worried. I had that nightmare again, I'm not surprised though, I'm always having dreams like this. "Was it about it him?", my head snapped at Minku looking at them with a shocked and terrified. Why? Why did they have to know?
Tears fell down my cheeks and I sobbed quietly. To some it would seem sensitive and not passing to cry but for me and Minku it was routine and it's fucking tragic. We felt weak under the scrutiny of it all. Not able to do anything at all nor, being able to stop the torture that became existence. Minku hugs me tightly and rubs my back in slow circles to comfort me as I cry a river. It feels like the world is becoming more and more suffocating than usual.
**outside a moment later after Yukai's mental breakdown**
After my breakdown we went to the counselor and told them that we were leaving the campus and going to our dorms. I sighed softly and kept my head down while Minku drived us home, I looked out the window of the car and saw a figure, the figure looked too familiar. My heart dropped as I saw the face and the eyes staring dead at me. Tear swelled in my eyes, my body trembled uncontrollably.