"Blitzy, um... how do you feel... about monogamy?" Not that they had established they weren't monogamous, but they didn't establish otherwise either.
A knot formed instantly in his stomach. Not because he didn't want to...be with Stolas. But because...
Well, there were countless reasons. His mind rushed back to past relationships. Or arrangements, really. Had there ever been a committed one? How was he going to explain this?
"I.... uh....Well, you know, Stols, I uh...." he bit the bullet and just said it. "Never really had one of those types of...uh, relationships. I've always, uh-- been expected to be able to perform whenever someone asks me to, inside and outside of a..." he made a gesture to try to indicate a relationship. But it probably came out lewdly "Why? Does it bother you to think about me diddling with other people? I guess I could try to... not do that. It's not like that's been happening or anything. Or that I've been, you know- wanting to. I mean uh... Other people don't-- you know, they aren't..." Shit, he was bad at this. "They don't do it for me is what I'm saying. But..."
How was he supposed to explain that he was terrible at saying 'no' when people asked for sex?
Didn't that make him sound like...
"I mean I want to be--" he told Stolas.














