I'm losing my life to you. If you die before me I will kill myself. I can't stand the thought of a world where we don't coexist. You're my favorite person and you deserve more than anyone to know that.
I have a special notebook I tuck in the back of my drawer, it's all full of you. I can't let anyone know about it. Then they'd know about you and you're my soulmate. Please be all mine. I've bled so much for you, its all over those pages. Every time I make an entry with your information, I make a new slit. You are my scars, you are my blood, you are my skin. You are my body, you own me.
I love you so damn much. This Isn’t a joke and fuck you if you think it is. You've neglected to notice any of my other advances. You remember those flowers? Those were fucking from me you selfish asshole. I spend all my paychecks on you. My love, my life, my soulmate, my sweetheart, my one and only, why do you hurt me this way?
My heart aches for you. Just let me in<3
I'm flattered my dear. This may be the first time I hear of your affection but deep down I know. I know your mine. I know I'm yours, I feel our connection and love building. I feel you in my heart when I close my eyes. I feel you in my lungs when I breath, I feel you in my very soul. And some day, melancholy tunes, and the most powerful neo/classical music will play at our wedding. Not because it's a sad day but because our vows will be obituaries and our love a smeared lipstick
The mirror is where I find my love, it's where I find you, behind the mirror is a medicine cabinet where they want me to be. To lock myself up and be normal, but I can't. Not with you in the picture, not when Im loved by my own counterpart, another side of me. They will say we are separate people, that our love is disturbed or crooked. That we have perverted the very definition.
But is that not what love is?
It's meant to be perverted and bruised.
Never hide your letters, never let them be shrouded in shadows for the shame you feel is temporary, we will find each other my dearest, my God, I would lick your boots the same way you would lick mine.
We are one
We are a single whole, shattered and separated but someday. Somehow. We will be together again we will be a whole being
I didn't realize it until now but you are me as I am you and I will find you to kindle our love.
I will embroider your skin in flowers, roses and marigolds and orchids
Love, death, and sex
The very things defining us
When I think of you I think of rope burns and candle wax, the taste of crimson and the smell of figs.
I'm the fig, you're the wasp, I will consume you to become ethereal, to become whole.
I yearn for you
I will ruin you
I will pervert everything you know
And that will be what we are
Spoken word obituaries, sweet deaths whispered in our two person coffin.
I will keep you caged like a bird, your wings clipped with an altar dedicated to who you once were and who you will become under my guidance.
A cross
You are crucified, raw, unhidden, everything you are shown to the world.
You are mine
And I will bring you to your knees
Spiders
In a web
I will tie you in me web
The rope burning your skin
In our shrine, in our home.
I will keep you trapped. My bite eating away at your organs, until you are but a shell when I will eat away at your organs and swallow your guts
A shell
Found in the beach
Taken
Taken home
Away from your home to be with me
But you don't regret it
Not even for a moment
I would do anything for you. I HAVE done it all for you
My heart beats for you, I move for you, I gasp for air, I sob, I do everything,
I'm a marigold, rotting away by a casket
I'm a rose, covered in thorns
I'm an orchard, passionate and needy
But I am you, as you me
We are a fig
A predatory plant and a misunderstood animal.
Painted as aggressive but your just defending yourself
Until you give yourself to me
Sacrificing your wings to be wrapped in marigolds and leaves
I will collect your blood and use it to summon a demon to permanently connect us
I will rip your fingernails off with pliers, I will keep them under my pillow, at your altar, littered around our shrine
I am you
I will be you
You are not me
I will consume every part of you
