Hold up... Pills? Counselling? What happened? Don't have to reply publicly if you're not comfortable with it. Just me being nosey and hoping you're well. Uni is a bitch of a time, and I've got massive ears if you ever want to have a word in one of them. <3
Aw thank you! I’m happy to whack it up here just in case anyone else was wondering, and it’s nowhere NEAR as big a deal as it sounds haha
Yeah, I’m still having a reasonably good time! But for a while now, I’ve been struggling to sleep even more so than I do anyway, and throughout the day, I’ll just suddenly feel down over nothing or burst into tears for no apparent reason! I’ve also been really apathetic towards life: the things that used to bother/motivate me don’t anymore…however, because I have so much on this year, I know that at any given moment, I should probably be getting on with something. So it’s a perpetual limbo between motivating myself to do anything whatsoever, and just sitting around!
I went through something similar around this time last year, didn’t tell anyone about it, and an UNBELIEVABLE level of shit got fucked up. I know that if I do nothing and give it a few months, I’m likely to feel better like I did last time…but- you know- fuck going through all of that again.
So dragged my ass to Student Health, the doctor was like: “Shit son, you sound mildly depressed with a bit of anxiety [didn’t even know it was possible to be both]…want some drugs?”, and I was like: “Ah, fuck…aye, go on then” [this conversation may or may not be a little paraphrased].
I’m sure that I’m ok, DEFINITELY not depressed, and I’m suddenly aware of how ridiculously long this response is, apologies!
