#bluedabade

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"6 years ago I introduced my puppy Moose to you. Here he is all grown up!" https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/je4e3e/6_years_ago_i_introduced_my_puppy_moose_to_you/?utm_source=ifttt

[wordsbybluedabade]

Heavy; cement in my stomach and tar on my shoulders

Snaring small stones one by one

Atlas would remember my name if he knew me

I am holding thin lips in a thin line, grinding teeth

Worried glances and puffy red eyes

There would be a river if I had the strength to cry

For someone else

So afraid of the quicksand on my childhood list of fears

I don't even know if I should struggle

I am taking a deep breath and choking on the beer I find myself drowning in

It is so easy to close my eyes

Submerging my brain matter in musical notes

Shhhh, hush now and listen

Hush now, listen

To the nothing

And sleep.

[wordsbybluedabade]

Exposure

When I tell people that I do nude photography, the eyebrows usually go up.

"Oh." They say. They blush and laugh nervously. "That's...cool."

They generally think that I mean porn of some sort and in a world of such common exposure

demanded from girls before they know that they don't need to prove anything to anyone

"Tits or GTFO" and "C'mon, just take some pictures for me, you know I won't show them to anyone else"

I understand the hesitation in their voice and the awkward glances away.

But in my photos I want to show so much more than is asked for

In a swirl of fetishized men and women I want to shine the light so bright that your eyes sting a little--

You want exposure, boy, here it is.

I will show you curves and rolls and bags under eyes

I will show you veins and wrinkles and two day old makeup

I will show you unsightly bumps on legs and weird-looking toenails and ribcages and hipbones and double chins

Sunspots and belly buttons and surgery scars

Nipples and elbows and cellulite.

I will show you roots showing, hair dye dripping in the shower, cracked lips and acne craters

Stretchmarks and unevenly coloured skin

I will show you gut-busting laughter crowning crooked teeth, two week old stubble and a somewhat blurry penis of undeterminable size because for fuck's sake, you can't do anything about it and it doesn't really matter so stop trying to compare them and don't tell me you are grossed out by seeing a picture of one when you were hoping to see boobs because SOME PEOPLE HAVE ONE and people's bodies do not exist to turn you on.

Our bodies are weird, frustrating and ultimately the coolest thing we have, to do with as we each see fit

We are goddamn art, I tell you

And I intend to show it.

[wordsbybluedabade]

I am wearing bandaids on my tongue like my heels breaking in

Stiff leather hiding blisters that will stop bleeding if I can say the words enough

Pretty shoes pretty words I'd like to get right to wearing without scarring

But that's not how you break in something new.

If I act like I am strong enough I'll pull through

If I tell the same tale long enough it'll be true.

Licking the blood from my gums with a grin I will repeat myself louder

Until I am comfortable in my laces and in my language

Until the universe forms itself to my shape

I will let loose on rooftops and into microphones and I will tell you--

I am okay, with or without you

I will gladly hold your hand but if you decide to let mine go I will be fine

Tears are just dripping from raw spots that will heal in time.

Someday I will take these bandaids off and it won't hurt to say the words

Someday...

But right now I'm still breaking them in.

[wrigglypuff-blog-blog]

I had to do it! My friend has made me nostalgic tonight...I'm blue if I was green I would die, if I was greeeen I would die!